i haven't written in here in so long. so much has happened, and i have become so different..it's 4:06 in the morning. I find myself missing memories of my life or the lack thereof these days that once were. i miss my old life. i hate the way everyone's become. the ones i truely loved moved away, are gone. who knows ( Read more... )

nothing is new...at all...my life is still shit...no gorgeous girl on my arm...no job..no g.e.d...no nothing.. long statement put short...MY LIFE STILL FUCKING SUCKS

Ever have that feeling that something in your head was gonna snap? Well it won't go away..I'm so sad...I'm not even trying to be on some sort of "Emo" level...i'm just sad...i don't know what to do..i'm so fucked up in the head...

So yeah..the weather is getting colder which is making me feel better...but it still doesn't make EVERYTHING better...the weather jsut reminds me of Christmas, and Christmas makes me feel good inside. I love the way it looks outside. Although today it was too sunny to be so cold in October ( Read more... )

we've been broken up for good..she stole my best friend away..and she took my heart with her..whats left for me now? what a heartless girl....i hope one day when she's older she'll understand what she did to me..she's immature for this and just absolutely terrible ( Read more... )

It was another get right back together to break right back up again day. I've been thinking about going down to the starbucks with my book tonight and get some coffee and just read for awhile..i think it would make me feel better. all ive been doing is reading. I bought the Perks of being a wallflower cause i lost my copy last year and so I picked ( Read more... )

Why did I get treated like shit? it's fucking bullshit. I never did anything to deserve to get hurt like this. I'd rather be shot, beaten, spit and pissed on than have had her break my heart like she did. I was so stupid for giving her another chance. I'm an idiot. She begged me for another chance and even though I shouldn't have after all she's ( Read more... )

So once again in my life everything is my fault. What the fuck did I ever do to anyone? I finaly find out who I am and all that and all the sudden I'm not allowed to remain happy. I broke up with Katy because she lied to me about everything in our relationship, friends I used to have fucking hate me now...I keep hearing how I've changed but all I'm ( Read more... )

I'm getting a little bit happier now, for the past two nights I've been really happy, and I don't know why ( Read more... )

so...we broke up againnnn. she needs "Time to find herself" which I think is fucking bullshit. but hey what else is new in my world. boy meets girl girls breaks his heart, that's what always happens to me, its just different this time cause i actually like her more than i've ever liked anyone.