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the last thing that i want to do right now ( Read more... )

i rarely update this thing anymore. probably because no one really comments on it. whatever ( Read more... )

so i got a job at this school in the ghetto of baychester, right in the middle of the projects, where i was the only white person out of all of the teachers/students/parents. i worked there for a couple of weeks but the new director is apparently half-retarded and doesn't know how to hold on to important paperwork [for instance, my TIME SHEETS], ( Read more... )

i just wanted to take this moment to brag that carolyn berk, the absolute love of my life and singer for the band lovers, and i have been communicating via myspace messaging for the past two days. we are trying to put together a show and i am SO excited to see her perform i think i may die. just wanted you to know.

i love her. thanks.

today is october 12th. october 12th is my birthday.
i am 22 today! old lady!
it is also my 2 year anniversary with julio.

yay!

two nights ago i spent the night in the emergency mental health unit at jacobi. they basically locked me up in a room with a crazy woman who was singing/praying/screaming in spanish all night. and i got so mad that they wouldn't let me go outside to talk to my friends who brought me there or smoke a cigarette that i flipped out on the nurses/ ( Read more... )

my birthday is october 12th. what shall we do? i am thinking something simple and not completely alcoholic, like hookah. would everyone be willing to travel? or do i really have to go to jimmy ryan's and kill myself?

i've been spending a lot of time lately researching researching researching everything. mostly buddhism and schools to go to. i'm giving myself a year here and if by the end of next summer things are not working out for me i'm getting the fuck out of here. maybe i'll go to colorado, or the carolinas, or rhode island or florida. the only school ( Read more... )

i just want to mean the world to someone.