tears rolling down my cheeks. heart beating too fast. sick stomach. this isn't right.
i want to die. i want to feel loved, in a different way. your way doesnt make me feel lighter than air.
what went wrong? what did i do? i want it back, i want it back.

i feel sick. i feel heavier than the dirt.

Here we go again... moving. I got into this room in May, and now I'm moving out to go to my room for junior yet. I hate packing. Hate it. I hate to pack and figure out what I need or dont need... or if the box is packed right. *sigh ( Read more... )

Ok, so we went to visit my mom's parents in ohio this weekend... you know, memorial day. ok, seems cool... especially cuz we havent seen them since thanksgiving ( Read more... )

Jim left to go back to Southern today. I cried last night when I drove home from his house last night, I seriously thought I was going to crash at some points. I couldnt fall asleep and I had to read myself to sleep. I dreaded today to start... he dropped by after he packed all of his stuff up. We went out to lunch and pretty much cried between ( Read more... )

I am so bored. I'm sitting here, totally alone. Not only is Shannon gone, but 90% of my floor is, too. Its depressing and I have literally have done nothing today. :-(

Going home will... suck. But it'll be temporary. I go to Oklahoma on next Friday and then go back to ISU soon after that.

I dont even feel like typing anymore.

Blah.

It's been awhile.. but it could be worse. I dont have a lot to talk about - just updating for the heck of it. I'm really bored on a Friday night and it's past midnight... I should be sleeping ( Read more... )

Are you fucking kidding me.

It sure has been awhile since I updated this sucker. Things have been insanely busy. I havent gotten the time to even sleep! sigh ( Read more... )

As I moved back to school this semester, I remembered how much I dislike my floor. Everyone is so rude, and clique-y. Seriously, when Shannon and I got back from shopping, over half the floor was chilling in the north part... talking and scheming. Idk I'm sick and tired of freshman and how they act. Get over it bitches, you're entering the real ( Read more... )

Christmas was a very good time. Peaceful, full of family, and just very merry. I'm very disappointed it's over.

I've been chilling around since then, and I'm very ok with that.

I dont really have much to say... just posting while procrastinating. :-D Yay.

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