at 11:52. the air feels stale. my heart feels heavy. my ribs are locked and my lungs have no room to breathe. if I turn on the radio I expect to hear jesus. jesus smoking a cigarette. just his stale breath. the inhale and exhale of God’s son on the air waves ( Read more... )

i met new friends last night and realized that cool people in the world really do exist and now my sister and i have mutual friends. yay. also everyone knows everyone. the new people i have met know you, chris craig comin. wierd. i love my sister. yesterday we were at this person's house (our new friends house) and a neighbor comes over telling us ( Read more... )

the braver you are the braver you have to be

im here at work at biogen-idec and there is nothing for me to do. atleast i get 11 dollars an hour to do that nothing. tuesdays and thursdays i hardly do anything but mondays, wednesdays and fridays i cant sit down. geez. i asked a boy out at the video store. i felt brave. ive hung out with him for the past 7days. its been good

good bye live journal!

happy valentines day!! it is also my friend kelan's birthday and all of a sudden valentines day is a day to celebrate!!! and so im wearing a lot of red for love, for kelan, for friends, for LIFE! valentines day can be good!

love,alex

ummm... im not sure what to write right now but i love my life i think. i feel the most stable ive felt in a long time and so im challenging myself with all these stressful things... aaahhh!!!!! and its making me unstable!!!!!!!!!!!!

comforting
fingers
moving
strings

notes
note
soft
magical
movements

im at home. ive been away from school since the beginning of december. sigh. i want thursday to come....

is it worse to say no or to have been said no to? expectations are the worst things in the world.

"You will never be able to escape from your heart. So it's better to listen to what it has to say. That way, you'll never have to fear an unanticipated blow." -The Alchemist

i cant fall asleep. i want to because im tired and i have to wake up early tomorrow. i want to say, im sorry i cannot have these feelings for you because i want to live my life again and breathe. but i love these feelings all the same. i want to feel strong and not be longing for something else like i am now. i wish i was not on vacation anymore ( Read more... )