Feeling like killing myself this Saturday night. I'm not sure what else I'm feeling I just blank out and fantasize about destroying everything, I can't find anything that would fully satisfy my rage, not even killing myself, so I won't do that just yet ( Read more... )

I am revisiting this journal because I need a place to vent so I won't drive my loved ones crazy. I have realized recently that I have issues with depression. What I mean when I say that is my anxiety, my problems with existence, my anger, they have been overwhelming my good thoughts. So deeply and for so long I am starting to lose faith in turning ( Read more... )

i almost forgot about this thing ( Read more... )

When I know I'm all alone ( Read more... )

And did you know my glass is never empty
And did you know I'm not as fragile as I thought
And did you know my love will never die

If you want money in your pocket ( Read more... )

And I'll see your Red Label, and I'll raise you one more,
And you can pour me a cab, I just can't drink no more,
'Cause it don't douse the flames that are started by dames,
It ain't like asbestos
It don't do nothing but rest us assured,
And substantiate the rumors that you've heard

-tom waits

When this here and now has been and gone ( Read more... )

i hate being sick. there is no amount of tissues or medicine that can make me feel better. i can't sing. and i cant sleep even though its 3 AM. but at least i have time to think ( Read more... )

house is the best show ever right now.
i'm sad the marathon is over.
that was the best part of this holiday season.