work stunk tonight. i promised myself i wouldn't cry in front of my boss... and well, it happened, but i'm away now and feel in my cozy little place to rest ( Read more... )

 vacation's one day shy  of being completely over. it's treated me well these past few days ( Read more... )

part of me is so sad because i know that college will mean i'm going to have to find new people to know and hopefully but more than likely temporarily like. it's really hard to think about the little sprouts of life people are going to form that i'll never be able to experience with them, or let alone talk about with them. i'm a very socially- ( Read more... )

 i hate this house.ugh ( Read more... )

well, i'm not going to lie, i'm feeling nauseus lately, disoriented, and unsure about college.i'm not sure if i want to go away or not yet,  and at this point i'm pretty sure i've got only the option of going to marymount, purchase, or nassau community, and i'll probably end up at nassau.

why does picking a college have to be frustrating to the ( Read more... )

 today was so, so fun. woke up to my brother making breakfast at 7 a.m., drove me nuts, then went back to bed for a bit. got up and got done ( Read more... )

 i just want to go someplace where i can dance and dance and not feel gravity, not feeling my mind shrinking or exploding. after school today i was oddly depressed, and just wanted to go someplace and dance myself happy, which works 99.9% of the time ( Read more... )

 i feel so sick lately. i can't eat anything without feeling this sickening feeling in my stomach, something like a damp bloat but i don't eat THAT much, and i eat from the stress, my heart is heavy and my mind is fleeting but my mom needs me around to help her out even though i'm a bigger headache than she ever accounted for. i am addicted to food ( Read more... )

 whoooaaa nelly ( Read more... )

 tonight is just so sad and boring. this week has sucked proverbial hind and i'm just forced to wonder if it's even worth trying to stay up tonight and write out what i'm thinking ( Read more... )