maybe there light at the end of the tunnel. nothing is etched in stone yet and nothing has even happend yet. im trying to not get my hopes up buttttt, i got a feeling i'm into something good.

finally.

well i turned 19 today.

still everything is so messed up. i wish it would be normal like it was in the winter...ugh.
i dont want to give up on someone but, i really care about her. shes my best friend, i dont want this to happen. i dont want to be the one alone again. god i wish everything works out.

im such a fuck up. have i really wasted 4 months liking and caring about someone for fucking nothing?!

i hate myself

why does it when ANYTHING goes good for me i have to mess it up somehow. this situation hasent gotten out of hand yet but i got a feeling im gonna mess it up really bad. ugh i hope this dont happen again. for once i feel like im happy about something and have good expections and this shit is gonna happen. i guess i got to just tell the truth about ( Read more... )

i dont need you, i want you.

i miss someone.

im sick on new years eve.

who is gonna be a loser and not go out this year...this guy.

i hate new york. i wish i went to boston for college i dont want to wait till next sept to go away. i wish i could just go now. i never thought id hate it here but i really do i did what i had to to do now i want move on and get out of here. i feel like im going no where but i know what i got to do...wish me luck world.

ugh vent

wow i havent updated this in monthes. im in college now, which isent as good as i thought it would be. christmas is soon, and im still a loser. cky is playing here in a few weeks im like omg excited for that. hmm what else...i have a band now, purple starfish. we have website too check it out at www.myspace.com/purplestarfishnoise ( Read more... )

sorry im leaving...

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