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prickles
in need of some courage, or just a little bit of the fake kind. Today I'm discouraged, a little embarrassed, and feeling a whole lot of obsolete. -
Today... is a mighty sad day
Today I would have been fine, I would have been laughing right now, singing a happy song that I've put in my head, or even watched a lot of movies instead of going to see one. But the thing is I did go see one, I did venture out of my house, stopped my little happy tune, and wore my self out instead of my armor. I thought it would be a good day, ( Read more... ) -
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Today was a bad day that really lowered moral and I don't know what I can do anymore to get my mind off of it because right now all the things I'm doing just don't last long enough to span an entire day. Everything just seems to be a filter trying to block out my memories of him when all I just want to do is kiss him, and see him, hold him and ( Read more... ) -
the what if's of certainties & impurities
what if one night you found that cancer was taking over me again, and you didn't have a chance to tell me everything you wanted, you didn't have a chance to make me feel special, to remember just how kind you were, or at least boasted to your friends in front of me with no regard for the truth. What if for one day you were with out me and wondering ( Read more... ) -
A blatant lie of truth.
For the first time in a long time I'm happier to be the better man, I'm wiser for listening, and I'm in love with out effort taking over my mind. The relaxing concept no one ever tells you of is that this will always be how it is for the both of you, you just have to be willing to have no natural progression what so ever. I love you Adam enough ( Read more... ) -
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I've become so emotionally unavailable that I've lost my ability to properly feel loved. I've often told myself I was not feeling love or that anyone loved me, but simply making it up in my head. And I've done this for the longest time; I not only believe it, I know it is a lie, a defense put up by my own mind but still I don't want to let it go ( Read more... ) -
random...
Hello my baby hello my darling hello my right time gal. Baby my hearts on fire! -
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I'm feeling emotional today, but want someone to understand it or at least let me be comfortable in it. My boyfriend's an amazing guy but I'm starting to feel like I'm not anywhere near his level. -
moving, with out a paddle
For the longest time I let myself believe that my friends were going to be the one thing that got me through life. Some of them pulled through, others began to show their true selves in the end and it just proved too much for me to handle being close to them. Over time no longer were my friends the people I respected, and this is realized though a ( Read more... ) -
awakening
I feel mostly used today, and the sad thing is I was some what allowing of my being used for a while; but suddenly it's starting to hit me and it's upsetting.