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I don't want to waste the weekend, & if you don't love me - pretend.
Burning bridges: An unfortunate & cruel personality trait inherited from my stubborn, bull-headed mom ( Read more... ) -
& it's not complete yet, mustn't get our feet wet, cuz that leads to regret, diving in too soon.
So I've meaning to do a New Year post, in appreciation of 2012 & looking forward to 2013, which I might do somewhere in this post but that's not really why I'm here ( Read more... ) -
Cuz by tomorrow morning, I'll have this thing beat, & everything will be back to the way that it was
I've discovered the catch in my happiness as a single girl. & it all lies in having good single friends, which is something I don't often have. Every time I get a decent single friend who understands me, they end up finding a boy ( Read more... ) -
She's running to be running, cuz it's all she knows to do.
& her heart ran cold,
but her love runs deep.
She's fire on the mountain,
wrecking everyone she meets.
She's like rain when she rolls in,
but there's sunshine in her thunder.
Makes the loneliest heart wonder,
if the ride is worth the pain.
Might not be storm clouds in sight,
oh but don't you worry friend.
She's coming around the bend,
she's holding ( Read more... ) -
I had to learn what I've got, who I'm not, & who I am.
I hate my pessimism & I hate my optimism.
"He's never going to speak to me again. Of course, I scared someone else off. Why does everyone give up on me so quickly? Why?"
vs.
"It's only been 6 days. 6 days isn't that long. Tomorrow is another day. Maybe I'll hear from him tomorrow. Maybe."
I don't want to hurt & I don't want to have hope.
I don't want ( Read more... ) -
You're not as brave as you were at the start.
Wow, this guy surprises me with half the things he says.
I like intelligence. I also like people who can cut through all the bullshit.
Particularly my bullshit.
He's keeping me on my toes. & I'm trying to keep myself indifferent.
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& it's hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him off.
And given half the chance would I take any of it back?
It's a fine romance but it's left me so undone
It's always darkest before the dawn
And I'm damned if I do & I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer & I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark & right at my throat -
(Untitled)
"Most of the time
I try to convince myself
That the future is yet to come;
But someone should remind me
Yesterday was once future too;
Tomorrow soon will be past,
& I still haven't moved from here."
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Why do I have this incredible need to stand up & say "please, pay attention"?
Sometimes I think "How did I even get here? I'm not even a good student. I don't even like studying. I'm always procrastinating. How did I even get to this place, where I'm on the brink of applying to Ph.D. programs? How ( Read more... )
