Sorry I haven't answerd to your posts sooner and that I haven't updated. I got grounded for the stupidest reason and my parents wouldn't even believe me.. It sucked. Going back to therapy was not my idea for helping me out but my mom seems to think it will work. Whatever.... Joan seems to think it will help alot. Jesse is trying to help me ( Read more... )

So I have this realization that there is no point of updating anymore if no one comments. So if you want to hear from me anymore please leave a comment...

Jesse is being a cow and won't comment in my journal...It's ok though. It just shows how much he cares. Lol* School is so boring and I want to go home and sleep. I watched Movies and did homework and played on my guitar all night. It was so fricken boring!!!! Jesse called me and was SUPPOSED to call me back, but he didn't. It was sad... Mr. ( Read more... )

There is an annoying little buzz that has been engulfing my head. It is like a siren that is so loud that you know it is there but are unable to hear it. Tough call. Do you move out of the way? Or is it coming for you? Bets are in..... The winner is------> It's coming for you. So many signs of warning to not get sucked up in it all but you ( Read more... )

Sorry it has been so long. I haven't been to the twins house in a while. They are some fun girls. Me and Jesse were doing really well the last couple of days. I t has been so fricken cute! He comes up nehind me and holds me and just makes me so happy!!! Lol* I wish we could see each other over the weekends. It is really hard though with our ( Read more... )

I just joined abusedgrls. I don't know how to write an entry in there though. Maybe if I just write a regular entry it will just go in there on its own. Oh well, we will see. Lately it seems that Tracey has been even more on my mind. I see him in my dreams again and I habe this feeling that I am gonna see him soon. I will cry so fricken hard ( Read more... )

Heather's "party" ended up to be a total of 5 people. We had loads of fun though so I wasn't as upset by the end of the night. Good times. Full of bork at the end. Lmao* I wrote a poem today. My mom thinks I am suicidal now I guess, Here it is ( Read more... )

Gordon and Heather are right next to me. He is a fun kid and I love him sooo much. If me and Jesse weren't together I think he would be next. Him or DeAngelo..hmm. THat's a good question. Oh well. I've missed Heather! She is a super busy girl. I love you sweety.♥ I need to talk to Jesse!!!!! COme on now.

Tons of fights in the household lately. I get mad, yell at my parents, bang my head against the wall some, and then the fury is over. It is spring break and I feel like I have been getting nothing accomplished. I dyed my hair! It is a purple color. I like it alot. Gordon is supposed to hang out with me and Alicia today if we get a hold of him ( Read more... )