My Screwed Up Life...

[fire_n_the_hole]

So gracie will be eight months old in 4 days. crazy shit. i can't believe it. seems like just yesterday she was born and shes getting closer and closer to being a year old. shes rolling over like crazy now-a-days. its cute but weird i think back on how you use to have to hold her head up for her and now shes a biggie girl :( So anyway i have like

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[friend_of_god]

I would really like to know how the hell its my fault. I'm sorry that I am never home for more than 5 hours at a time and when I am home its because I have certain things I have to get done. I've told you for weeks now that when I'm home on springbreak I would come see you. I have had to work every weekend since I've been back. I have class every day I would like to know what day of the week you want me to skip class and/or call off work just to come home for a few hours because I can't do it. You don't understand how much I hate going home. I hate that town there is nothing there for me. The only reason Ray sees me is because if he knows I am coming home he heads down to the house. So please tell me how in the hell this is all my fault. Every time I talk to you online you get pissed about a comment that I make. I don't live there anymore. As soon as the house sells, or when mom and bill move (which ever comes 1st). I will have no reason to go back there, as it is now I have very few. So explain to me why I would want to

[friend_of_god]

did i say it was your fault? if i did im sorry i dont remember saying it. i dont want you to come and see me on springbreak. bc i know its to much for you. i just tried so hard not to get mad that night you were in zville with your other friends and couldnt stop by for 10 minutes but thats ok...i dont want anyone to feel sorry for me. i'll get over this depressed state of mind of mine one of these days. but i hope your happier once you move. goodluck...and i will miss you...:(

[friend_of_god]

You didn't but that what came across I'm not stupid! How the fuck is it too much for me? I wasn't at my other friends! A girl I go to school with boyfriend lives in Zanesville and she came home with me because she wanted to see him and I said sure. Most of the time I don't even make it into Zanesville when I'm home most of the time I don't go anywhere but my house. What is so wrong with me wanting to move? Don't you want to get the hell out of there see what else this world has to offer. I hate most of the people there, I think 90% of them are trash. They don't want anything out of life. I can't be around that. If you want to be mad at me fine I don't care.