I look into the flawless mirror

And see a flawed reflection

I stare into these empty eyes

And cringe at what I see

What changed in me... What broke?

Why do I see somebody else

Behind these broken eyes

This can't be me

It cannot be me

Thes eyes belong to somebody else

These tears flow from a stranger's eyes

That's what I am now

A stranger.

08052004

I just went to an orientation at my high school

And it was then that I realized

I really am alone

As I sat in the bleachers

Watching the rest

Fraternize and bat their eyes

I wanted a friend

I never realized

How hard it really would be

To enter this new high school

In this brand new town

Without any friends

I am faceless

Nobody recognizes me

I am ( Read more... )

It's been three days

You come around here

Like you know me

Your stuff

At my place

Next thing you know

You'll be using my toothpaste

Step up

Sit down

Get ready

Let me tell you

Who's the boss now

Stay here

Get out

Every time I turn around

You're in my face

Don't care where you

Think you've been

Or how you're getting over

If you think

You've got ( Read more... )

Fumbling his confidence

And wondering why the world

Has passed him by

Hoping that he's meant

For more than arguments

And failed attempts to fly

We were meant to live

For so much more

Have we lost ourselves?

Somewhere we live inside

Somewhere we live inside

We were meant to live

For so much more

Have we lost ourselves?

Somewhere we live inside.

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Trying to be different

In a world that's all the same

Living as somebody else

Known by just a name.

Trying to be different

In a world that's tried and true

Learning things the hardest way

How can I just break through?

Trying to be different

In a world that forces me

To be the same, without a name

Why can't I just be me?

Trying to be ( Read more... )

I'm not wanting

Inhibitions

Or conditions

That make me hang

By a thread

I can't handle

Propaganda

That injects me

With such dread

I'm not ready

For addiction

Or conviction

That makes me feel

Like I'm dead

I may be lost

But it's my choice

And if I'm tossed

Or lose my voice

I'll just remember

What I have said

JF 05242004


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I LOVE YOU MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF...

YOU ARE AND ALWAYS HAVE BEEN,

AND HOPEFULLY ALWAYS WILL BE

MY BESTEST-DE-BESTO BEST FRIEND

EVER.

YOU ARE MORE OF A SISTER

THAN ANYONE ELSE...

AND YOU LOVE ME AS IF

WE WERE CONNECTED BY BLOOD.

I'M GOING TO MISS YOU SO MUCH

WHEN I'M GONE.

BUT I WILL CONTINUE TO LOVE YOU

ALWAYS AND ( Read more... )

If you had to have plastic surgery, what would you have done?:

Fingernail implants. I hate my fingernails.

What non-physical attribute(s) do you seek out in a friend?:

Acceptance. Trust. Laughter.

What non-physical attribute(s) do you seek out in a lover?:

Nothing. I'm not seeking any lover.

What is your area of expertise?:

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Staring at these walls

Wanting to break free

Pictures in the halls

Of who I used to be

Confined to this room

Solitary and alone

Outside flowers bloom

In a world I do not know

Why can't I escape

From this place I've been so long

My heart always aches

Because of what went wrong

I never meant to hurt you

Never meant to make you cry

But now all ( Read more... )

Yesterday

I visited a place

In my mind

A place full of memories

A place I once felt safe

But after visiting this place

I found

It is no longer my home

The people I once loved

No longer know me

And I

No longer know them

My memories are fresh

And remembered fondly

But they are now just memories

Memories that help

Shape who I am today

What I thought I ( Read more... )