god i been cleanin for ever.... i had to help a lil bit in the middle floor then i have to mop or something downstair i think vacktum but i really dont care. but i been cleanin my room for about 2 day well a day in a half i keep stopin...lol! all i have to do in my room is dust n do a hell hold of lendry. im goin on a big shoppin spree this weekend ( Read more... )

i still cant sleep. Always having steven on the mine. wish that somedays i can just forget about him that oneday i wake up n there is no members of him. but other days i wish i can wake up n have what me n steven ones had or something like it. i think steven doesnt want me to know how he really feels he hinds his feelin from a lot of people well ( Read more... )

God this shit is starting again. Brittany is bein a bitch. i can say a lot of shit about her n to her but im not goin to do that. steven was bein stupid sayin again that he doesnt want anything between us. i didnt understand one day we were fine then the next day he was fuck off. god i know he goin to run fucken back like he always does. it a lil ( Read more... )

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today was so bordin. im sad. im goin to really miss mat ( Read more... )

today is the 4th of July! i get to go see the fireworks n play with fire fun fun! i think this year someone is goin to get hurt n its goin to be quite funny. i dont know if i want to go with justin to go see the fireworks or go with my family. if i go with me family i get to bring anyone that i want to n i get to go down were i used to live will by ( Read more... )

i dont know what truly been goin on. since this summer began it been like a really long up n down rollcoster. it has it good time n it has it bad times. n like every rollcoster it might need a lil fix here n there. but now i think its goin to be a good ride. i know that its goin to be go in the end. i chouldnt see it through the shit that i was ( Read more... )

Latly it has been good. something happen that im truly happy about. but in a way i was it was more. but right now what i have can do n i can work up to something better. i know it can ( Read more... )

i want someone to read this to steven ( Read more... )

i cant beleave what i found out. i still think it isnt true. i just dont know what im goin to do this summer. i mostly been in my room doin nothin just sitin around thinkin about everything that been goin on between me n steven. How can i spen my summer knowin that i cant talk to him, see him or anything anymore? i just cant do it. i have to have ( Read more... )