i'm fucking sick of all this bullshit.
i wish it would all just go away.
my whole body feels like it's on fire,
and i've been freezing cold all day.
i don't know whats wrong with me.
and my friendships are falling apart,
and everything is just going out of control.

saturday still on raine?

i'll tell you what was wrong with me last friday night.
i told you numerous times before that i didn't like the girl you left with,
it was MY PROM. and i didn't even want to go.
i just wanted to spend my time with you.
you were my prom.

whatever,
nothing matters anymore.

the whole fucking room is spinning. whatever. i'm obviously the most terrible friend ever, i don't know. i have one best friend that i can count on, and i don't deserve him. i'm loosing brandon, and i'm trying to forget that it's going to happen, but it is. i want raine, she makes me feel better. awjrehbfgnfjg i don't know. i need something.

blah, i'm sick of people treating me like i'm a fucking freak.
or a porecelain doll. i'm the same person i've ALWAYS been.

nick linde is mine.
haha.

one thing i hate more than being sick, is being sick and in the hospital.
and it's so strange, how so many people die there, but then so many people are born there too.

OKAY. so, i have this disease called Glomerulonephritis.
yes, my doctor was wrong, again.
i don't have cancer ( Read more... )

i'm so drained ( Read more... )

i haven't been this sick in months ( Read more... )

imissyouimissyouimissyou.

raine, ahh.
save me.

i never thought anything like this would happen.
but it has, and i don't even regret it.

i just miss you.
more than i have expressed.
:[

i'm sick, and i seriously think the right side of my throat has cancer in it.
my hair is falling out. it really scares me. and my kidneys are acting up bad.
i have to go back to the doctor and be examined this week, and i really don't want to.

i'm just really scared.