Wow, its really been forever since I have used this thing. I went back and read this and was amazed at how old I really feel. My birthday is coming up next month and I'm going to be the big 24! Ahh not really looking forward to that. But, a lot of things are different,  different in a good way.

todays moving day!

Rise against has a video for 'swing life away' its strange.

I feel so driven today and I want to work somewhere that has promise. I hate my work place, I hate my job. it just sucks. this job is a dead end and even if this job is just for the summer, I still feel like i'm wasting my time. I have worked there since the age of sixteen. I should have moved on by now ( Read more... )

.and I morn what use to be. see. I looked at myself just from january. what the fuck happened? i'M so fat now and its depressing me.I hate it I looked so much better. what happed to me. whatever it is I fucking hate it. hate. I want to die. die looking at my old self. I gained like 30 lbs. hate hate and I wish death.
i do not love myself

getting wasted.

If words could explain what i'm feeling now, but they can't. I so fucking pumped to see your beautiful face. I want to scream and cry and just protest the next day, so it will be saturday. I don't know what i'm going to do when I see your face. I am I am ready to sleep until saturday. god please get here soon ( Read more... )

Venus Conjunct Mars with an orb between 1 and 3 degrees ( Read more... )

I way to sccream schools out for the summer!

You're all the same, your words are just a hopeless sad attempt to save your lying soul. Its sad really, sad that I would fall for your lies and deceit. I feel wiser now, but I really did fuck myself over ( Read more... )