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moving on.
the date is set. Friday February 9th i will be making my great escape from the Borough of Montoursville and fleeing to the City of Pittsburgh. thank GOD.
now i'm cleaning. packing. throwing shit out. like throwing out half my life. i've already filled 5 garbage bags that will go to the local version of the Salvation Army. another 5 are filled with ( Read more... ) -
time to think.
i love my job. truly, i do. days like today are what make it wonderful and frustrating at the same time.
i'm sitting in an awesome base with very cool people, miles and miles from home. weather just plain sucks, so we haven't taken any flights today. that makes for a long long day. nap, eat, attempt to experience the curvature of the internet planet ( Read more... ) -
we make plans and God laughs.
never have i been more convinced that i have no idea what is best for me. my mother always said, "we make plans and God laughs". yeah. He's laughing because he thinks it's cute when we try to run our own lives. kinda like how a parent thinks it's cute when their 3-year-old sits behind the wheel of the family truckster.
lately, my decision-making ( Read more... ) -
well that's that.
after struggling with my conscious, my ego, and my heart, i finally made the hardest decision i've ever made.
i want out of my marriage. god i can't believe i can say that.
i'm tired of being sad. i'm tired of feeling guilty for who i am. i'm tired of apologizing for my career. i'm tired of being intellectually and artistically dead and alone. i'm ( Read more... ) -
waiting
yes another day spent waiting. i cannot believe i get paid to do this.
so i sit here, on the couch or in my bunkroom or here at the computer....waiting for someone Downtown to push that button. i was wildly hoping for a flight to Pgh today. at least sometime before 1900. i'm thinking that might not happen. seems like every time i wish for something ( Read more... ) -
what the FUCK
have you ever done something wild, wonderful, awesome...then thought to yourself "what the FUCK are you doing??" yeah. that's where i am right now ( Read more... ) -
this morning
so far, the day is good ( Read more... ) -
self-induced insanity
can someone please tell me why those of us in this profession cannot seem to have just one job? or why we cannot seem to allow ourselves more than 1 day off in a row ( Read more... ) -
9 minutes
9 minutes left in a shift straight outta Hades. i just launched this insanity called LiveJournal. bear with me. things will be bare around here until i have time to decorate. living outta boxes for a while, ya know?