why is my shit always a mess?

ok well this just might be long so ( Read more... )

im alive, i dont know if thats good or bad right now. schools okay but ive had all sorts of depressing things happened i cant stand it. im sad alot and it sucks. i feel so alone. i cant really do anything. house arret and i have been looking to move out but then my car broke down and i got fred from my job. now i got a new job tho. so its good ( Read more... )

if you didnt already know i moved home. my life went down the toilet... i have no car it died, its costing every cent i have to fix the damn thing. worse than that is the fact that once i get it back, i dont have the cash to get the inspection sticker it needs never mind the insurance. i have a job. i have to borrow my dads truck to get to it ( Read more... )

every day im made to wonder.. what is life about? now im going to try to hit both sides of this the best i can ( Read more... )

dear journal...

cant you just lie to me and say its gonna be alright

can it ever be alright????

happy christmas.

one thing about college that isnt very fun is the always being sick. ive had a cold prety much the whole time i have been here. other than that things are going as expected. depression kicks in once and a while but other than that im pretty happy here. the expected homesickness sucks from time to time.

college is kicking my ass... i love it so much. i met tons of people that im sure im gonna have the rest of my life ive made incredable changes to my life. everything is getting better and im finally happy. ive found my new home where i belong. its awesome..

every time im nice to you and i really make an effrot to change and to do things for you, you turn into a monster. you refuse to come down you make me cry you say hurtful things. then you wont pick up when i call. to put it bluntly your an ass to me sometimes. yet i always love and i always want you back. youve fucked with my head in a way you ( Read more... )

the past few days have been miserable... I have toruble doing any of my work at my job. i cant hold a conversation exept with mike.... i cant keep food down.. i feel sick at the pit of my stomach constantly... i even have a hard time driveing... i dont know what im going to do. Amy has started to come back into his life... he sais their not ( Read more... )