he leaves in less than a month. i don't know what to do. i'm really not looking forward to this next year. they are saying that they will be gone 12-15 months. by the time he gets back Avery will be 16 months old, he will of missed most of her "baby life". and Jaden will be a little over 3 years old. I really don't want hime to leave. If you think ( Read more... )

wow, so i haven't updated this since september 17th, lots of things have happened since then.

scott and i got married, he left for basic a week and a half later and didn't complete that until the first week of february. after he completed basic we moved to fort knox, ky. while living here in the not so wonderful state of kentucky, scott has been ( Read more... )

Life is fucking crazy ( Read more... )

lately my world has been turned upside down. so many things going on at once.
*two weeks ago i had to but my cat to sleep. she was 18.5y/o.
*we've been having quite a few financial problems. we are working those out which is good. we moved into a smaller and cheaper apartment which is helping...
*and almost the worst of all... today i received a phone ( Read more... )

i've been really bad at keeping up with this lately.
there hasnt been too much going on.

*Jaden turned one on the 6th of July. She is soon to be walking. She now has 10 teeth. next week we are going to go and get her pictures taken. I will have those up once i get them back.

*Scott and I are looking into buying a house together. which is exciting and ( Read more... )

Kaylee passed away this afternoon. she had been unconscious since the accident. i hope that she didn't feel any pain.

please keep her family in your thoughts.

i was planning on going to see her tonight. i waited too long. i wish i could of said goodbye.

there is way to much sadness in my life right now...

on wednesday a family friend went in for surgery to remove stomach cancer. they didn't complete the surgery b/c it had spread farther than they thought. he has stage 4 stomach cancer, which means that he could die at any time.

on thursday another close family friend's daughter was involved in a ( Read more... )

 how did i manage to get someone so amazing? 
she is not his daughter yet he is willing to accept her as his daughter. 
we are finally becoming close again. the past month we have had some major heart to heart conversations. i would like to think that the pregnancy scare didn't bring them on but i know that it did. either way we're figuring things ( Read more... )

Jaden's hair is finally starting to grow and it is getting darker.
she has her two bottom front teeth! and i think she is soon to be getting a top one.
she can sit up almost completely on her own. well, she can sit up on her own but she falls over quite a bit still. 
she is close to being able to hold her bottle on her own. she knows how to put it to ( Read more... )

i have decided that i am going to report it.
it has been over a year. 
and i'm afraid to do it.
i don't know what is going to happen. 
i don't know what they are going to say.
i am afraid of how it will effect me. 
i am afraid that they won't take me seriously. 
i am afraid that i will have to go through this alone. 
i am afraid to face him again.