i just wanna stab myself in the eye.

not really. but yeah.

in other words, i don't enjoy staying in the fishbowl until nearly 8 am ... from 8 pm the night before. of course, i have an exam tomorrow i'm studying for tonight on two hours of sleep.

don't you just love college whining. ;)

LB: are you happy?
AH: i'm very happy.
LB: good, because i want you to be happy.

what do i know about anything? not much, i'm afraid. and wouldn't it be nice if i could go backwards into the future, retrace my paths over rocky roads and green glens, and understand why i have arrived at the moment which i do? yet, that has a distinctly unsatisfying flavor, because for me, the excitement lies in the unknown. but we are all so ( Read more... )

i've come to realize that i really like my house, and my girls. yeah it's taken awhile, mostly because the house received a 4-month long facelift/makeover july through october.

hoo-ray. :) and yay for talking to brandon, who i haven't been in contact with for almost six months! ^_^ go go go brandon. you're pretty cool.

my favorite professor likes/loves me!! how awesome is that. XD she thinks my writing is "amazing" and "not to be equaled," but to be honest, she's just boosting my confidence. my writing's pretty shitty when you get down to it, but i guess i actually care...care a lot...about this 15-page paper that's all about the one big personal issue i'm ( Read more... )

i just found out that kavya died on tuesday.

it's SNOWING!!!!

Even though it seems way too early, I can't help but stop and appreciate the deep majesty and mystery of each year's first snow.

It makes me hopeful for the things to come. =)

The noise becomes more and more distant, the scenery fades and falls from view
These eyes and ears and fingers and even these heels quietly tremble and go on awakening
They are in love in love in love in love
And they are solely yearning for you

One door away is overflowing with hatred, evils and sins
If I go out alone I will surely be crushed, but ( Read more... )

it's not so hard putting yourself in someone else's shoes.

but then...sometimes you just wanna stay there.

and it's moments like these where i question myself -- not only my self-worth, but my ability to live the best i can.  why do i feel this way?  well, it's because of those nights where i felt absolutely weightless, those afternoons spent imagining what it ( Read more... )