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whatever: ver reprise #19219829283921938109238019823012938129801
failure...seems like more times than not, regardless of what the endeavor is, the outcome is the same...just an overall negatii mean shit it seems like even my puppy is tired of me...so over it, and overall..just getting tired of trying. (no not going to kill myself, or anything like that...but my level of effort is waning, and i am not sure i can ( Read more... ) -
whatever.
I'm really not sure exactly what my "problem" is... i mean i am depressed, and have a fair amount of anxiety..i GET that... and i cope as well as i can...but i mean... why can't i just handle life???? i feel unfulfilled regardless of what's happening...i feel alone in a crowd, i don't ever feel like i am included, even when i am...and then after a ( Read more... ) -
*raises fist* WOOOO HOO 4-21!!!!! errr uhhh...
overall...i got nothin...life is that constant variable ride of extra-ordinary magnitude as always...i am excelling in some facets, others....not so much...human. -
4 years, and a month
STILL not over you Dad...hell, how is that hard to believe??? it's been 9 yrs since i've played with my old band, and i ain't over that...i need to learn how to get over shit.. -
It's
funny how, even though i am doing pretty much everything the way a person, nay... and adult is supposed to do things...i have never felt worse emotionally AND physically... -
It's
funny...how i've become such a discontented hermit...well replace funny with aggravating, and then replace aggravating with bummer ( Read more... ) -
ain't
a damn day that's passed in the past 3 plus yrs that i haven't thought of the ol' man at some point...sure it's gotten easier to face each day...and i don't break down and cry nearly as often, but still miss him more than i'd ever been prepared to.... -
well hellomy old friend....
Its been a hot minute since i've updated this dumb thing ( Read more... ) -
the fun never fucking stops
so...sunday, i KNEW we were getting some snow possibly significant snow.... so i kept waking up before work on sunday and getting an eyewitness assessment of the weather...the last time i woke up before i USUALLY need to be up(about 2 hrs prior) no rain yet... obviously no show...nothing... pass back out, and wake up at like 2pm and theres like 3 ( Read more... ) -
holy shit
i havent update this in 57 weeks according to the login page... so.... the past year... hmmm... for the most part my life is better than it was a yr ago... i mean Jessi and I are GOOD... she is closer to graduating...Daisy is awesome as always...really the only thing that isnt better is......the amount of debt we've run up in the past yr...but it ( Read more... )