I wish I had my friends. It's weird cos after Jeremy broke up wid me, its like I went into a shell cos I was working and I didn't see many people, and it was like I didn't want to be seen cos I was hurting. Now its like I only have Jessi and Andi and a few other friends, but I'm not close with many people, I just float around, talk to everyone but ( Read more... )

I want to go to the city! Enough of this small town loneliness! Time for the big stuff. Might go visit Andi soon like promised. Our new tradition, following the one of having dinner at each other's work. Mmm! Nice one. Very cool ( Read more... )

I don't want Jeremy back. After reading Carly's entry and all this stuff with Isaac and meeting new peple, I don't want to go back to a shitty messed up guy! Let alone someone who broke my heart and isn't the same guy! Just some dude in my ex's body! No way!!

I'm stuffed. Just got back from work an hour early cos it wasn't all that busy, but to my joy, Isaac was there. I saw on the the write up book (wastage, manager's drinks, sailing stuff etc.) that his name is spelt I-s-a-a-c, that's how he wrote it up anyway, so that's cool! I like different spellings, makes it cooler, more origional. But we had a ( Read more... )

Had another Jeremy-involved dream this morning. We were up in my sister's room, which is in the shed aka the little house aka the house we used to live in before M&D built our bigger out on the same property, and there were lots of other people in the house and Kirsten and Alex and I were in some class group outside where we had huge rubber bands ( Read more... )

With Jeremy, I made things too complicated like by caring about what he got up to with his ex girlfriends although he insisted they didn't mean as much to him as I did. I was thinking about Isack and how I wouldn't care if he had past gf's cos if we did something I'd always be wondering when I'd go home. He's a night thought tho. I was way too ( Read more... )

Fantasy - To kiss someone I like for the first time in the rain, water dripping down our faces, clothes saturated and not giving a damn

If it was with Isack I would be very well pleased :P

Mum is sending me up her old chunker of a phone. I used to use it when I had no credit but it shits me! It's old and crappy, just like David's, and exactly the same model and I'm like "I went looking for phones today" and she was like "I'm sending you up mine so you don't need to. You need to save your money and start filling up your bank account" ( Read more... )

I'm gonna get the Nokia 3100. I'll get snake and can download wallpapers and logos and ringtones and games! Just what I want. And it's fairly cheeo. under $150. I went window shopping today. I started off going up to work to get my pay check, got $21 p/h for Sun, $18 p/h for Sat and $15 p/h weekdays and ended up with $261.67. It's ok. Twice last ( Read more... )

I had a dream this morning about Jeremy. He died. His Mum told me and I thought back over how it felt like being with him and how I would never get it back. We have been apart for 7 months and just to know that we could never be friends was so devastating. He never told me how he was feeling after we broke up and he promised that one day he would ( Read more... )