Comments | fishbowlsoul: happy fourth of july everyone.

fishbowlsoul

happy fourth of july everyone.

Jul 04, 2005 02:42

i can hear the drumming of my heart in my ears ( Read more... )

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blackpage July 4 2005, 12:22:08 UTC

Gimme a call today if you find yourself bored.

fishbowlsoul July 4 2005, 17:13:13 UTC

i did! and you helped cheer me up

mraustin July 4 2005, 13:33:00 UTC

mia wasn't denied life. she heard your voice everyday. felt when you were happy and when you were sad. listened to the same music you did. was soothed by the steadiness of your heartbeat late at night when you were asleep. felt your hands move across your beautiful belly.

mia wasn't denied. she was given something so different than what you've been given. and i'm certain that with as much love as you had for her, her time with you was very happy. she loves you just as much as you love her. i'm glad she was able to live so close to someone who loves her so much. you made her time here very special. you were her whole world, her universe, her every horizon, every sunset and every sunrise. if only everyone could wake up every morning so close to someone they love.

you were her whole world, and her whole world was love.

fishbowlsoul July 4 2005, 17:13:57 UTC

god, this made me want to sob. i am so thankful for your words and i know they are true. i just cant deal with not having my baby girl. not having her is killing me slowly piece by piece.

ballerinagirl93 July 4 2005, 15:56:34 UTC

It's okay to not be okay, love. And no one can offer you a calendar that says that you'll feel x by y. You are changed, now, but always, loved.

fishbowlsoul July 4 2005, 17:14:09 UTC

thank you

tristan_moore July 4 2005, 17:33:28 UTC

Don't take the crib down if you don't want to.
Don't be ok if you're not. The hallucinations worry me a little, you seeing a doctor for that?
Cry, scream, yell. You don't know how many times I've cried for you.
I cannot imagine what must go through your head minute by minute. In fact, I'm worried about that.

I know you really don't know me, but I'm looking foward to meeting you at the wake. I swore I would never be able to attend a wake for a child again after we lot Ethan. But if you only knew how much I am looking foward to giving you a hug... If there is anyone in this world that needs it right now its you.

fishbowlsoul July 4 2005, 17:46:51 UTC

thank you so much.
the hallucinations have always been there its just now they take the form of my daughter (i'm schitzophrenic) and that scares me so much.

viewrainn July 6 2005, 15:48:58 UTC

I'm not going to say anything...I'm going to give my number and let you decide what you need, 972-838-8533

fishbowlsoul July 6 2005, 18:02:38 UTC

thank you and never hesitate to call me if you need anything

713 817 6651

viewrainn July 10 2005, 19:31:15 UTC

everyone needs friends...I'm yours for the "using" remember that!