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this journal is closed for the most part.
i do have a new journal. most of you are already on it girllikething comment here and i may add you to it and i may not. i'm making my life more personal now, so if you are offended.. sorry but i can't handle everything being so open anymore ( Read more... ) -
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i should've known that i wouldn't hear from you on her birthday.
seems to me that the more you tell me you've changed.. the more i realize you haven't. -
i can find those church bells that played when you died
one year ago on june 15, 2005 you were born to me ( Read more... ) -
a year is fastly approaching.
on june 15 it will have been one year since mia was stillborn ( Read more... ) -
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gaibryelremorse and dartpolyi hope the two of you are happy with your aweful "relationship"> gaib you are a hypocrite and scum for doing what you did to me and for not doing a damned thing or caring one bit about your daughter. biologicaly you are her father but you never were her daddy. fuck you. dart, as a friend i am completely disappointed in you. of all people you ( Read more... ) -
like a good book i could put this day back
sometimes i feel like i am losing my grip on reality. i don't know how to grieve. i don't know how to be ok. i don't know anything anymore ( Read more... ) -
uh huh good morning
crisis from previous post averted ( Read more... ) -
weird, upsetting dreams.
so last night gaib and i went to bed together, talked for a bit, fooled around, and then as i went to sleep he wandered into the computer room for a while to try to get sleepy. a few hours later i woke up with a heavy feeling in my chest and in near full on panic attack mode. i had been dreaming about this man, he was tall and lanky with glasses, a ( Read more... ) -
fuck you universe.
>:(
that is all.
*edit 2:14am*
today is the first time gaib and i have ever yelled at each other. this was our first real fight ever, and it was over something stupid and frivilous. :( after a while though of just sitting beside each other being quiet and watching tv we calmed down. things seem ok now.
*sigh*
