the service was wonderfully beautiful, all candle lit and peaceful. i didn't cry until afterwards when i opened a gift from my mom, it was two tiny plaster casts of Mia's feet. i had forgotten how tiny they were. it was probably the most beautiful gift i have ever received aside from mia herself ( Read more... )

today is the memorial service and i have all of four or five sentences written of my speech!! ;__; i've been putting it off because i don't know what to say but now time is almost out and i don't want to get up in front of my friends and family and look like an idiot because i don't know how to express how wonderfully beautiful having mia inside of ( Read more... )

WHAT MAKES A MOTHER ( Read more... )

i really had a tough night last night. i made some pictures with Mia's handprints, printed them out and framed them with the little hearts from build-a-bear. they turned out really nice. i might post a photo later. i then read a journal entry in this book my mom bought for me to write down memories for mia. i was discussing her name and why i chose ( Read more... )

Happy would be birthday my dearest Mia. i love you more than words or actions can ever express ( Read more... )

thank god for taheen, cruiserweight, and painkillers.
it's the simple things that matter....
good music, good friends, and good times.
*sigh*

( at the end of the tunnel there is always light )

so we decided to do the build-a-bear idea and are going to do it tomorrow, july 22, which would be Mia's due date had she lived. i am going to put four hearts inside the bear, one for me, one for gaib, one for my dad and one for my mom. this is the bear we chose. i can't wait to hold my daughter again ( Read more... )

A wife who loses a husband is called a widow,
A husband who loses a wife is called a widower.
A child who loses his parents is called an orphan,
Yet there is no word for a parent who loses a child,
Thats how awful the loss is.

then the baby came ( Read more... )

Pray - shall I go blind ( Read more... )