Comments | fishbowlsoul: bleh on today.

fishbowlsoul

bleh on today.

Jul 21, 2005 20:40

so we decided to do the build-a-bear idea and are going to do it tomorrow, july 22, which would be Mia's due date had she lived. i am going to put four hearts inside the bear, one for me, one for gaib, one for my dad and one for my mom. this is the bear we chose. i can't wait to hold my daughter again ( Read more... )

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angelrichmond July 22 2005, 01:45:52 UTC

I'm so proud of you. ^_^ ::big ginormous hugs of squishy doom::

dartpoly July 22 2005, 01:51:36 UTC

doh. you said what i was gonna say.

so, second that!

*more mondo-hugs* keep up the Good Works. and don't forget:

breathe.

fishbowlsoul July 22 2005, 01:57:04 UTC

thank you both of you! life is hard but it gets easier as each day passes. and as i said yesterday ^_~ everything will be ok as long as dart can tell me to breathe!

dartpoly July 22 2005, 03:00:47 UTC

awww!!!

*blush*
i feel speshul.

devra July 22 2005, 02:05:08 UTC

The bear is such a beautiful idea. We'll be there on the 27th.

fishbowlsoul July 22 2005, 03:37:06 UTC

thank you. we'll see you on sunday at havok!

bookpixie July 22 2005, 02:59:01 UTC

*big hugs*

The bear is a wonderful way to keep Mia close to you. What a great idea.

fishbowlsoul July 22 2005, 03:37:51 UTC

yea when i read the article i was just almost in tears at the beauty of it all.. but then i wondered if it was too weird and then i decided it was for me... and mia

rainydai July 22 2005, 03:15:52 UTC

I'm sorry. *hugs* I am sure your time will come and when it does it will be perfect because you deserve it.:)
I am sure the words will come to you. It's not always what you say but the feeling behind it.

fishbowlsoul July 22 2005, 03:38:39 UTC

thank you. rationally i know its better to wait til i am done mourning for my mia... but at the same time.. i want a baby to hold and cuddle and smell and love and just argh.. so much

fireangel_999 July 22 2005, 03:18:53 UTC

I think that is such a sweet idea with the build a bear. I can't imagine you not being able to know the words to say. You write so beautifully in your journal! Just listen to some Tori and write down your thoughts, how much you loved her before you saw her, the plans and hopes and dreams you had for her, the sorrow you felt when she was born and the lessons in it for you and everyone else, about not taking life for granted and about mending relationships because you just never know, about appreciating and loving your kids and about your realization just how much you can love someone you had hardly known. I know you could do it so beautifully.

fishbowlsoul July 22 2005, 04:13:52 UTC

yea so far ive written about what it meant to be pregnant to me. and that mia changed me forever