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A question of faith....
with the loss of my perfect daughter the question of faith has come to mind quite frequently. i have been going to my mother's church which is a very laid back episcipal church. i feel as though i ought to be praying... as though i ought to believe in something. whether or not it is the "christian" god i do not know. but i NEED something... some ( Read more... ) -
the thoughts inside my head are going to explode right out into space
so many thing worming around in my head. pain, hurt, regret, hate, love, vengance, so many things and i can't seperate them one from one from one. i feel so alone in my pain, in my emotions. i feel as though no one has ever felt this way before and each time i meet someone who has i feel as though i am a part of a secret society... one where we all ( Read more... ) -
dreaming
"Do you sometimes just dream. And you think your dreams are what you're really living, but you're really not. That's like my life all the time. I'm always in this dream going 'Wow, this is really happening!'. And it's like, 'No Tori, it isn't, this is just all in your mind.' And this song came from that place, it's like all in my mind. I think I ( Read more... ) -
hmmmm
Proud of my broken heart since thou didst break it,
Proud of the pain I did not feel till thee,
Proud of my night since thou with moons dost slake it,
Not to partake thy passion, my humility.
Emily Dickinson (1830-86)i wish i had words to express my hurt, my anger, and my jealousy. i wish i had words to describe what it feels like to be me ( Read more... ) -
I'm in a floyd mood
as i prepare for bed.. one song sticks in my mind.... every night it is the same. so now i am going to go and crawl under my blankets and surround myself with pillows and clutch Mia's teddy bear to my chest and lose myself in a medicated sleep that allows me to forget each and every dream i have.
Overhead the albatross ( Read more... ) -
uhm
words fail me ( Read more... ) -
oh my lover.. tell me that it's alright...
do not stand at my grave and weep ( Read more... ) -
there's something beating here inside my body and it's called a heart
you know how easy it is... to tear it apartright now i feel like a chaotic rainbow, frosted lucky charms ( Read more... ) -
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mermaidangst was kind enough to copy this and paste it into my lj... it's a tori amos quote for those who don't know..
from piece by piece ( Read more... )