Comments | fishbowlsoul: the thoughts inside my head are going to explode right out into space

fishbowlsoul

the thoughts inside my head are going to explode right out into space

Jul 14, 2005 19:32

so many thing worming around in my head. pain, hurt, regret, hate, love, vengance, so many things and i can't seperate them one from one from one. i feel so alone in my pain, in my emotions. i feel as though no one has ever felt this way before and each time i meet someone who has i feel as though i am a part of a secret society... one where we all ( Read more... )

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pixiesqueaker July 14 2005, 18:03:49 UTC

I know its not the same- but I feel that weird isolation from being someone who was dumped a month from the wedding...
I want to erase it all from my mind that anything was ever there- but the only real option is to just deal with it. I am so glad you have so many people you love you to help you through this.

I wish there were magic words ya know?

fireangel_999 July 14 2005, 20:45:19 UTC

As you progress and as time passes you will find another mom who is going through the things you have progressed from and it will give you a chance to heal through helping and also to see how far you've come. For now, us moms who are further into it will be here for you and love you no matter what and hold you up when you are feeling weak... and leave you alone when you want space, but not for too long. :-)

complicated_me July 15 2005, 09:46:52 UTC

*huggles you*

rainydai July 15 2005, 12:47:58 UTC

You are so strong. I still think of you often. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. You and your daughter have changed my thoughts and feelings on so many levels. Thank you! I can't pretend for a minuet that I know how you feel. For me to do so would be foolish. but I do know the love you speak of. The love for your daughter. I wish that love was not coupled with such pain. I will light a candle for you and your daughter on July 27th.
Take care

mermaidangst July 15 2005, 16:55:46 UTC

jamie gave you that poem? she was really worried that you'd... ummm, not deal with it well. jamie has a habit of giving people strange and foreboding messages, she gave me a birthday card that said "instant karma is gonna get you" on my 16th birthday.

fishbowlsoul July 15 2005, 17:51:29 UTC

yea she gave it to me when i was around 6 months pregnant. she glued it to the outside of the box she had put her present for mia in. she was really really worried id not take it well after the fact but its going to be on the memorial bullition. the poem actually means alot to me..

and yes jamie does have a strange way of uhmmm yea....