fuck this bullllllshit

We talked til the wee hours of the morning, and whilst holding me closely he said "Yes I do see you in my future." Granted he has said this before, but something in me clicked today and i realized he's not just saying that to shut me up. I have never thought about the future so optimistically.

oh and i'm just about 100% sure that i'm bipolar.

I have been overtaken by this insatiable desire to excel in the work i do. It's strange really... i always hated kids, but this job is intensely wonderful. I really enjoy working with mentally disturbed children. I love it when i see the changes in a clients behavior, and then they return home and successful in their home as well. I love making a ( Read more... )

i really need to attain motivation. i need to start getting my head in the game. i need to really focus on school. BUT I CAN'T for whatever reason. it pains me to go to school. i hate it with a firey passion.

Today has seemed to last forever, and as much as i try to not think about the past... i can't stand it. There are so many things i wish i could say to you, could do to make things better between us. But i feel like i have lost the opportunity. i never know what to do and this time i feel like i have it all figured out... but the truth is it will ( Read more... )

Everything seems to be getting worse. in the i can't stand my job my house, my car or my life kinda way!~!!#!$#% i think my wotrk is spawning a lot of this frustration. no lie it's really bringing me DOWNS. and i think that my boss is quitting because she can't handle it either. and i don't think that i can stand this place if she doesn';t work ( Read more... )

so, i think that i am much better when i am NOT in a relationship.

the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side. and i think that i might be envious.

i feel that no matter what i will never be good enough, but you will continue to string me along. And even though i know it's over in my heart except that last little bit that is clinging onto something that no longer exsist, and prolly never did.. i still can't let you go. i keep thinking you will finally realize how much it is hurting me, and ya ( Read more... )

you have my fucking heart, and you know this. when i talk to you it's so wonderful. I can't stop thinking about you EVER ( Read more... )

I suppose that i shouldn't count on anyone else but me ( Read more... )