staring down the barrel of a 45

[fivepointhalo]

I don't know how to describe how much Christmas sucked. The only good parts were seeing Fiona so happy and hanging out with my brother. They are the only two people that matter anymore. I'm tired of putting all my effort into things that just aren't meant to be and in the end i end up feeling rejected, alone, and a little less human then i was

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[bluefaerie]

i know that feeling. i had to sit through christmas stuff with my stepdads family last night and my mom and i both wanted to scream through it all. its nothing but materialistic bullshit. true, i never had to worry about growing up wanting something and not having someway to satisfy that want...but at the same time i was taught that things are just handed to you. not even at christmas or my birthday. and then i get around my cousins and all it was all night was "thats it?" "is this one mine too?" "wheres blah blah blah? this isnt what i asked for".i just wanted to look at them and tell them to shut the fuck up, say thank you, and be happy. ARGH! sorry. enough of my rant. but um, ive offered it before, if you ever need a night out and you just feel like you cant take it and need a babysitter or whatever, im around. i dont mind and i dont have a life of my own. so any chance to remove myself from home is a welcome one. im sorry your christmas was so bad, i hope your new years is better. and as much as its probably a ironic waste to say