Sometimes I wonder if monogomy is for me.  On the right hand, I love Nick.  He is thoughtful, spontaneous, responsible, and creative. (Yes it also does not hurt he is handsome. On the left hand, there is my good friend patrick who I met only amonth after Nick.

Let me also put it out there now, there are no intentions of cheating on Nick with Pat.  ( Read more... )

The funniest thing happened and I am going to tell you about it. After having a thoroughly bad night at work, I get online to check my mail, read a few stories on CNN, and of course my ritual reading of craigslist.  Every two to three days I read craigslist : missed connections  all of them the gay and straight ones. It is better than  Citypaper's ( Read more... )

I get a lot of heat about the way I dress.  It is not comments about mismatching, wrinkling, too many patterns, etc. instead about the amount my clothes cover.  Tiny shirts and low cut pants are my thing.  Girls wear miniskirts and deep v-shirts regularly.  My midriff is not  more revealing than someone's cleavage.  My legs are not slender so I do ( Read more... )

My boyfriend is the best and want to love him as long as he allows it.  The thing is though I am lacking in the friend department.  It isnt so much that i dont want to tell him everything, but just it can be a burden to always lean on one person.  Certain issues he has a hard time understanding like body image and weight. Sam and i talk alot but ( Read more... )

six going on seven months exclusively. 1 month while we were in flux. so far so good. i am careful to not be too excited about things, but it is difficult

This girl is officially a bartender and nick is in Florida for Ultimate Nationals. YAY!

PS I got my test results back from the DR and there is nothingtoo serious going on !!!!

iknow my last entry was a bit depressing and sounded like maybe i am a bit unthankful, but i'm not. i have many blessings a caring family, supportive friends, a boyf who texts me little funny messages, other than these problems my body is strong, my job is fun, a house to live in, good food to eat, access to all the art and music i can handle, and ( Read more... )

today i had a colposcopy (http://womenshealth.about.com/cs/cevicalconditions/a/colposcopy.htm for amnyone who wants to know what it is)because my papsmear came back abnormal. There were abnormal cells and she took some samples to get a biopsy done. I ( Read more... )

The party last night. fun until the fight then it turned extra lame.    My after party 4am events kind of made me livid and grossed out. Scumbag.

i applied to at least 20bars today and iwiil be lucky if one calls back. i will learn to bartend