i can settle down if the guy is worth it. the problem,there is a good chance i am much too insane to be loved.

tomorrow work, gym, shower, nap, cuddling with frankie, blackberry merlot, and panini. if for some unfortunate event he doesnt get back from maryland on time, low budgets and ray grady's with devon.

devil's rejects is the worst movie ever. rob zombie is a gruesome bastard who should be surrounded by bunnies and sugar cookies.

i didn't stay over yay me!

Reasons i am an awfully awesome drunk ( Read more... )

i'm wokring NYE 4pm-2am and NYD 1pm-till they send me home. feel free to sopin and buy food

Everything is crashing and i feel crazy. hit-someone-with-a-baseball-bat-and-enjoy-it-crazy.

I take careof myself as much as i can. When i am too tired to function mentally, i sleep, stretch, meditate, and go to the sauna at my gym. In general, i take care of my body. Doing both cardio and light weights, my body has a well rounded athleticism that will be easy to maintain with age. Other than the social drinking on weekend, the food and ( Read more... )

ruteger13 [1:15 AM]: i might have shown u this already, but it never ceases to amuse me
ruteger13 [1:15 AM]: go to google.com
ruteger13 [1:15 AM]: type in miserable failure
ruteger13 [1:16 AM]: then click i'm feeling lucky so the first site automatically comes up

good news. i went on a date tonight with joe see two or three jorurnal entries ago if you havent heard about him. tonight we went on an actual date and the good part i swe get along sober.

its odd, last night tommy cogs and i had a conversation about how terrible drugs like coke and heroine are. Today, i was coming home from the gym and i see this guy waiting for the bus. Holy mother fucking shit, its this guy who was exactly like a big brother to me from right before i turned 13- almost16. He's about 8 years older than me. we would ( Read more... )