I was browsing through Jack's old LJ entries, 'cause I couldn't remember if I'd quite caught up (and also to see if maybe he had posted anything since we met, which he hadn't), and it looks like the woman he dated before me was an astrophysicist super model. I'm not kidding. Neither was he. I knew he had dated someone who both a genius and a model ( Read more... )

I remember going to Great Adventure with Drew the first summer we were together. We had a blast, and I remember thinking about coming back next summer, with the same people. How alien and strange it was to even be able to contemplate maybe still being in a relationship next year, given that my relationships had general shelf-lives of about 3 months ( Read more... )

This is the first free moment I've had in... I don't even know how long. Weeks ( Read more... )

The days that are fucked up and awful are ever so slightly less fucked up and awful, and are now interspersed with days that feel okay, and sometimes even good ( Read more... )

Processing is mostly what I've been doing. It's been a long, slow, painful, irritating process. I sit with this new information, and I breathe. And then I cry. And then I seethe. And then I scream. And then I cry some more. And then I punched a pillow. And then I cry some more. Lots and lots and lots of crying. I don't know how people survive this ( Read more... )

“Perhaps the greatest faculty our minds possess is the ability to cope with pain. Classic thinking teaches us of the four doors of the mind, which everyone moves through according to their need ( Read more... )

I like peoples' stories. I like to know things, and what's more, I dislike not knowing things. I imagine some small part of my inability to let go and move on or away from people I used to know is that it means not getting to know their stories anymore. It's a dropped thread. I want to know ( Read more... )

We picked and booked the place to have the wedding reception at ( Read more... )

Classes opened over the weekend online, and I must say I am well pleased. The course load looks very manageable (which, of course, I was worried about). My English professor seems really great and wanting to be involved, and the class focus for the semester will be the hero's journey, which is just... so cool. Psych seems good, too, though the ( Read more... )

I can't stop thinking the words "I can't breathe ( Read more... )