Last night, I dreamt about you. It wasn't the first time, obviously. It wasn't even the first time in a long time. You still wander through my dreams on a pretty regular basis. I've more or less accepted that it's not really you. You are some manifestation in my mind of... I don't know. Longing. Fear. Need ( Read more... )

It's the night before Thanksgiving (not as exciting as the night before Christmas), and I'm feeling a tiny bit pensive. I've had blessedly more free time and less panic this week than I thought I was going to have, but it's still been emotional and stressful. It's been a long run of business, almost all of it in a good way, but still a long run. ( Read more... )

The difference between experiencing mental disorder and having a rough day is the level of control one is capable of exerting over one's thoughts and actions (note that I left "feelings" out of that. It is exceedingly difficult to control feelings, and often detrimental. What is important is controlling thoughts and actions ( Read more... )

I had this big, huge post I was going to write full of imagery and cleverness and words and stuff.

You know what you get instead?

I FUCKING HATE SCHOOL >:0 щ（ﾟДﾟщ）

I FUCKING LOVE MY HOME 8D ヽ(´▽`)/

And my husband is a wonder.

That's it.

I miss Kevin ( Read more... )

It's Saturday afternoon and my husband is still very much asleep in the bedroom. Things feel peaceful in the apartment. It's nice that things are peaceful. It has not been a peaceful week. There was some insanely bad badness between Jack and his mom this Sunday past. I don't feel like going over it again; I've talked it out as much as I can, but ( Read more... )

I'm feeling very sanguine about my life these days. Not just where my life is going and what's happening in it, but the realities of my status and the role(s) I play. Being away from home is great, because I can fulfill the roles of Supportive Sister, and Caring Daughter, and Cool Aunt so much easier from afar. I can give them all what they need, ( Read more... )

Finally. I finally have some real down time. Some quiet. Some time to relax. Summer class is done, everything is set up and ready for Fall classes, which don't start until the 23rd. I'm only working one day a week because of said Summer and Fall classes, so for these two glorious weeks I have very little responsibility and a whole lot of time. It' ( Read more... )

I've been watching Black Box. It's not very good. It's about a doctor of psychology who has bipolar disorder. They frequently fail to properly show what mania looks like, although they try very hard and occasionally almost succeed to get across what it feels like. There are moments, however, that almost can't help but ring true. And one or two that ( Read more... )

Married life is wonderful ( Read more... )