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So Me and Amanda, did sumthing very bad last YESTERDAY AT LUNCH. HAHAHAHHAHAAH!! IT WAS FUCKING GREAT and so is she yo. I feel sooooooooo evil!!! LOL ( Read more... )

I wish things were when they started happy and nothing horrible happened. I just want to be my happy self again. I try to block it out and have a good time, but its coming back to haunt me once again.

Aha. I can't believe it. I really can't...hmm. It's already 1 year tommorow since Dmitri and I have been going out. Oh butterflies in my stomach. :)! Yay, I'm so excited. He's picing me up and Taking me out for dinner and I get to dress all pretty.... =D!


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Argh People aggravate me. The one time I need to do something...

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I can't sleep. It fucking 3 am and i'm still up. Everytime I close my eyes they open again with tears. I toss and turn nothing works. Everytime they close the images come to me. Flashing one by one like an old movie....yet in color....and the most frightning  of all.

Mary... I miss you so much you don't even know. I need you so much right now. I just want to talk to you about everything. So much is going wrong in my life and I'm freaking myself out so bad. I miss you so much. I hope your having a kick ass tiem at GOTJ.

I haven't been the happiest person lately. Everything is just going downhill for me. I will admit I feel liek shit. Something always seems to get me down and right now there are two main thingsa and one being my friend dieing on friday. I am very sad and emotional about it and every little crack I get from it really pisses me off.Just makes me ( Read more... )

...and you fucking tell me to just go home...ARGH............BULL..SHIT!

( Oh yeah! Keith did a picture of me on photoshop...EEEEE Prettie! )