fukking love and bloody hate

[fjortisprinsess]

It just took some days for Johanna to get boyfriend and girlfriend with Henrik. And it makes me ill, sad, bitter, angry, lonely, disappointed... nothing feels right. I can't express my self in english - but they have done me wrong. Very wrong

Comments

[khahlyn]

I feel for you--and I understand what you're going through. I know you don't know me, so my opinion probably doesn't mean much, but I figured that maybe one person who understands what you're going through and sympathizes with you, even if I'm a thousand miles away, might help. I put you on my friends list a long time ago, after seeing pictures of you in Liselotte's journal. So, from me, *hugs* to you.

[electricstars]

I'm really sorry about all of this. I know that doesn't mean much, but it hurt me to read what you were going through. I was wondering why Johanna and Henrik were together.. I never imagined that you were going through what I went through about 6 months ago.

My girlfriend broke up with me on my sixteenth birthday. I was crushed. She said she needed a break, and I loved her too much to say no. Then, only a little while after that, she started dating a boy that she'd met while we were together. I'll spare you the details, because I don't want to start crying, but I really know how you feel

[soul83]

i'm sorry :( i hope you feel better.

[fjortisprinsess]

i'll try to do that=/

[carou]

i'm so sorry dear.

i would send you a flower, but from Canada to Sweden, chances are it would freeze on the way. ;)

i think you are one of the mostest beautiful creatures on earth, and i don't know you but i really hope you get better soon.

i send you all my Canadian live-journal hugs ;)

[fjortisprinsess]

thank you - i really appreciate it :) <- well i can't really smiley for the moment but you understand...

[pussinboots]

I don't think you're wrong for wanting to talk. It makes me sad too to know that she won't. I'm not Johanna though, so I don't know why... I wish I could tell you if you were right or wrong, but I think the only people that can know that are you and Johanna.

If she doesn't want to talk, though, that means you're free to believe how it seems to you without her opinion--if she is not willing to give it, you have to make do with yours.

I wish I could say this to you in Swedish so I could make better sense--I'm not even good at talking in English though. :P

[fjortisprinsess]

The problem is that i can talk about the same thing over and over again. And that's bad.. i can't really handle it. Later have Johanna talked to me more and it's good... but it's all so problematic and I can't explain.

The problem is that i want "I'm sorry" but she can't give me that and I can't accept that. But I guess I have to but it makes me angry. And i feel very helpless.

I don't know what I'm trying to explain. The most is that i'm very disappointed that i did get so little support for her and that she failed me and got together with Henrik. But that's a big moral discussion that i can't take in English.

But it is colouring our conversations. It's like a moral/ethical collision.

My point (not really) is that she is trying to talk now but didn't want to in the beginning. But offcourse I'm not objective at all.

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[pussinboots]

Well I hope things work out for you soon. You seem to be handling this maturely at least on an intellectual level, which is a good sign. *hug* I'm impressed actually, at how you're saying "this is how I feel" instead of "this is how things are!". That's a very mature thing to do. I have never known you very well, but that just adds to all the good things I know about you already :)

[fjortisprinsess]

Thanks for those words and hug;)

But I wish that there would be some common morals in the world. Or that it would be less nihilistic. Ethics are strange and too unholy. (But I think that I'm to tired to explain what I mean right now)