"Consider how much more you suffer from your anger and grief, than from those very things for which you are angry and grieved." -Antonious, Marcus. I'm learning.

Prom was Saturday night. We looked cuttttte. It was fun, better than I expected.

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As much as I want to have everything figured out; I'm not even close to being able to. I don't know why everything always seems to disappoint me or why I sometimes feel invincible. I don't know why so many things have to be so heart-breaking or why I can never focus on what I'm doing the moment I'm doing it. I don't know why I get more glares than ( Read more... )

My birthday yesterday was good. Jake got me a beautiful diamond ring. My dad finally got me a new cell phone. During the day Jake and I took pictures wearing ( mustaches )

Today was fantastic. AND MY PROM DRESS GOT HERE! I love you Jacob Alexander Williams, you show me the beauty is this place.

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I'm learning to keep my mouth shut but now I need to work on shutting down my thoughts and closing my mind.

I don't think I'm going to California this summer, the only reason I am disappointed is because I wanted to see Mary, Kla, and the Ocean. I miss it but there is no way I want to miss Jakes graduation, and getting to spend that week with him, before I go to Florida.
Ordered my prom dress last night! :D Excited.
Today was good, no complaints.


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I have never tried so hard to just be numb. Even put through so much with my mother, family and moving around so often. My emotions take control far too often, and I just want to be numb. I don't want to be affected. I don't want to care. If all of my feelings and emotions could leave me right now, I wouldn't miss a single one. I think there is ( Read more... )

I feel like a failure. I've never felt this way in my entire life, at least not to this extent. I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep...