Why do i have to be such a fuck up? why cant i just get things right. all my life i have been a screw up and guess it will never change. i will always be a screw up and my life will go nowhere because i cant be trusted by anyone and i finally realized it.

Well lets see if i remember how to do this thing. Have not been to my journal in so long. i have no computer and no time all i do is go to school and work. but luckily i get to see courtney all durring that time, otherwise my life would suck ( Read more... )

My dad is such a jerk i ask to go out tonight and for no reason at all he just says no i need to come home. now he isnt even talking to me he is just sittin in the living room watching a movie and eating cookies.
i hate him.

Well it has been forever since i have wrote in my journal i have been really busy lately. i am so happy christmas is coming and i like christmas. yesterday and today i have been sick and i hate it cause i feel like crap but its ok cause courtney is taking care of me. um well not a lot is new. i get to work at the bar with courtney this week that is ( Read more... )

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why the hell do i have to say stupid shit and get people mad at me... i fucking suck... im an asshole like any other guy... i hate myself... maybe i wont wake in the morning and everyone would be happy, my dad especially...

Today sucked ( Read more... )

Wow... thats all that can explain the weekend i had. this weekend was the best of my life i have never been so happy in my life. I love courtney so much and i will never let her slip away. i didnt have any stress from my parents this weekend they went out of town. and i got to spend the weekend with courtney and i loved every minute of it. well ( Read more... )

i hate my dad he didnt let me go out tonight cause he had to tell me that i needed to call matt and tell him how im going to pay him back. he is a ass. i came home he told me that and then said i couldnt go out but courtney could come over i was like what the hell... she doesnt want to come over she hates him too. but whatever life goes on...

Josh

well i dont really have anything to say that i haven't said before. had an ok day. had to work but got out early... I love courtney!!! um... yea now im bored with nothing to do so im going to go now.
Josh