I haven’t written in a while. I’ve been writing in my Scotland blog some, but generally just not journaling much. I have a lot of thoughts and I think I just should write them out.

I’ve been thinking about relationships and dating a lot. I saw this movie tonight and it just increased my thoughts. Tonight before the movie we were talking about guys ( Read more... )

I don't know whats wrong with me today.  I woke up and started making french toast, and I just feel depressed.  Matt keeps popping into my head, and I keep thinking of him in an intimate way, and it just makes my heart sink.  Like I feel like I have lost the ability to feel that good with someone or something.  I don't know, I just need to keep ( Read more... )

What happens when I get back ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving has come and gone.  I have been feeling really... disconnected.  My mom was here and i felt so weird.  I feel like she doesn't even know me on top of that i feel like she is so wrapped up in herself that she doesn't want to know me.  She thinks saying "I'm proud" is what I want, she doesn' thave to ask anything, or understand.  ( Read more... )

Been feeling horrible lately.  Dizzy, hot flashes, fatigue, panic, emotional.  Its been horrible.  I have randomly started crying numerous times over the past few days ( Read more... )

I have a test tomorrow.  I have studied a little bit.  I wish I could have more stress about tests.  Matt text me, talked to him on the phone for quite sometime yesterday.  He was telling me that in law school you don't have exams, well just at the end.  I'm not sure how I would do with that.  I guess its good I have no interest in going to law ( Read more... )

I saw the leaves blow around on the ground tonight.  They just got swept up by the wind and began to move.  I wish that could be me.  I wish something would come and wrap its arms around me and sweep me away.

I spent some hours with Lauren last night.  It was strange to talk to her, for so long I felt uncomfortable thinking about how she hates or ( Read more... )

I can't spell very well.  I know it makes me appear unintelligent or something but there is not really anything I can do.

My hair is getting long.  I'm over at Ben's right now.  On the way over here I was thinking of that day that I cut it.  it looks about the same tonight as it did that night.  I had so many vivid dreams when I had dreads.  Dreams ( Read more... )

Fuck, tonight was ridiculous ( Read more... )

Been feeling really down today.  It is manifesting it in the worst of ways though.  I literally hate everyone and want to end current relationships I have ( Read more... )