ive been sick way too often this past month ( Read more... )

I havent posted on here in months. i Dont know why, just havent felt like it i guess. SO! since i dont think iev posted since i returned from germany here's whats going on ( Read more... )

so i have no 'home' to go home to now, i told my mom about my earrings and my tat and she might as well have just disowned me, but being gay is something she could "put up with", earrings and a tat are just way too much. so i dont know what im doing anymore, im putting in my two weeks notice today, or i was sure i was going to , but im not 100% ( Read more... )

my biggest regret, and the thing that haunts me most to this day, is that when i left SD for germany, i felt like iabandoned all the people who turned to me to help them with what was wrong with their lives, but there were so many that it almost became too much to handle. and i feel like the worst person in the world for it. i do however have ( Read more... )

weird....defines everything right now

im being trained to be a supervisor at my job! its about damn time too. however its not guaranteed im going to get the promotion, first they are going to train me and then decide if after being trained, that im good enough for the job. i just watched Silent Hill, it was AWESOME, i loved it, i think i got it all figured out, Will was completely lost ( Read more... )

last night was bad, i did something really stupid and i hate myself for letting me get to that point. it feels so hopeless right now

11 months ago my credit rating was in the low 300s and now its at a 612, which isnt great but at least its alot better. i applied for a loan for 2 grand, hopefully i get it, so i can pay will the 1300 i now owe him and have some to start trying to find a cheapass car to last me 6 moer months.

http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/02/16/miami.preacher/index.html

these people disgust me

I've had enough of being the guy who cares more for other people than they care for me. Im so angry at the world right now. when i was a kid i was ignored by my parents for drugs, when i was in high school i was ignored by my best friends for drugs, and now AGAIN im being ignored by my best friend so she can ditch me to hang out with someone she ( Read more... )