though the end of last night could have not happened, i woulda prefered that, i cant say that i regret the night. embarassing yes. but i got out. i had fun. i did what i needed to do. but here i am again. but i cant expect that to change over night. but i can honestly say, that i finally understand. if in fact, i am believing in and trusting the ( Read more... )

i have a confession to make.....

i had a dream last night. now, i know dreams dont mean anything. its just the thoughts in your mind when you go to sleep, but it would be amazing if my dream came true. it was just so wonderful. i will go on about my day keeping that dream in mind to keep my mind focused on work and keep me in a positive mood, but i wont let my dream let me distort ( Read more... )

i wokr up this morning feeling very unalright. i prayed to anyone or anything that might be listening to let yesterday have been a really bad dream. then i came to the realization that it wasnt. that everything really happened and im having a harder time today than i was yesterday. is it going to get better? will i get better? will he want to be ( Read more... )

ha ha...

am i really that bad?

im confused

and

sleepy

and

lonely

and

bored

and

needing a cigarette

and

thankful

and

just name one... im probably feeling it.

goodnight

GO AWAY ( Read more... )

have you ever craved something so badly that you could actually feel it ( Read more... )

why cant i be both?
i dont get it. probably never will.
this isnt healthy.
neither is that.
do what you gotta do.
keep quiet today.
keep to yourself today.
avoid drama at all costs.
cheerful is good.
pessimism is bad.
optimistic side?
dont take it.
watch out.

11:30 - 8 tomorrow!