I don't know what to do with myself tonight. I think my extremely emotional day yesterday took it's toll on me this weekend. I'm trying to seek out things that bring me comfort, but nothing is really working right now. It's going to be a long night. =/

I really want to scream right now. I tried to call to talk it through with my therapist but she's not answering. I just got into it with my dad and I can't calm down. I'm only getting angrier and angrier. I'm shaking, I'm full anxiety and the tears and just right there. I'm running on raw emotion right now. I told my dad a while back I could use ( Read more... )

I had a fabulous weekend. Seriously. It was lovely. The best I've had in a LONG, long time. Therapy Friday was painful as usual, but I left with one assignment that paved the way for my "comforting" weekend. Assignment: Seek out and identify things that comfort you (scents, tastes, actions, environments, etc.) And that's what I did. And it worked ( Read more... )

just give us through December. Please. Just through December. You have already been exceptionally gracious. We have learned our lesson. Please, just through December.

The days have just been getting more confusing. I don't feel like I'm good at anything right now. I'm too emotionally and mentally distracted to be a good student or employee. I'm so wrapped up in myself I have no idea how to be there for anyone else. It's hard to be there for my husband when EVERY DAY for one reason or another I need him to be ( Read more... )

For the last two years I've been telling people that two of the best things I have ever done for myself were going gluten free and quitting the birth control pills. And here I sit, with my mandatory bowl of cereal, getting read to pop the first pill of my new prescription. I'm putting all my fears into a clear, silicone looking sphere, telling ( Read more... )

I feel like a slightly different person from one day to the next. I had the notion earlier today that I haven't been such a ripped open mess since my last therapy session on Friday, but I think things are just manifesting themselves differently. I have been falling asleep around 9:30 and 10:00p these last few nights. That is NOT typical for me at ( Read more... )

I've only been to one therapy session with this new person and OMG has it left me raw. My emotions are all over the place and it doesn't take much to trigger me. Last night Justin and I were talking about one of his clients, which led us to talking about random crazy people, which led us to talk about hyperactive kids, which led me to have a random ( Read more... )

Justin: "Baylee, you've definitely grown taller than Amy ( Read more... )

Around 5:30 yesterday afternoon I had this very strange epiphany that I hadn't thought about my body up to that moment. Even in that moment I didn't think about it. I didn't think of it the rest of the evening and I haven't thought about it negatively at all today. It's very odd for me. Not a scrutinizing moment. It's like something disappeared. I ( Read more... )