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Sleepless in Sacramento
Okay, so technically I'm in Carmichael but Sacramento sounded better. It's 11:35pm and I'm wide awake waiting for my evening meds to kick in - low doses of a couple prescriptions I won't mention. I'll luck out and my system will concede to the drugs and I'll fall asleep; OR, I'll turn into a zombie and vegg on the couch for another hour or two ( Read more... ) -
Of Love and Loss
There are plenty of words that come to mind when I think of my life experiences in 2017; pain, exhaustion, fear, and loss, to name a few. As we draw upon the end of the year, I'm looking at the core of it all and always come back to love. One doesn't experience the type of fear, pain, exhaustion or sense of loss I've experienced without love. Love ( Read more... ) -
Dia de los Muertos
Saturday I was lucky enough to find myself in the Dia de los Muertos celebration downtown for a whole 20 minutes. My experience was brief but what I saw really got me thinking about how we treat/honor/forget about the dead. It was so beautiful to see people celebrating their loved ones that have passed on. So many of us wrap death in sadness, and ( Read more... ) -
Reflection
I'll be 31 in four days. I've been thinking a lot over the past few days about where I've been and where I'm headed. I was so excited to turn thirty. It felt like a whole new chapter was opening up for me. My birthday trip to Washington with Justin was everything I'd hoped it would be and more. When I got home I felt like I'd found a few things in ( Read more... ) -
All it took was running errands.
Our vacation was fabulous!! It was everything I hoped it would be. From a romantic candle lit dinner with fantastic food and service accompanied by a modern dance performance, to the absolutely breathtaking forests and coastline of Washington, it was nearly perfect. I came home feeling more than refreshed; I felt new. 30 really did feel different. ( Read more... ) -
Changing
When I was finally able to sit down and really talk to Justin today about my trip to Boise, the breakthroughs I've had, and my feelings about it all, I shed prideful tears. I accomplished a lot on my trip without even trying ( Read more... ) -
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I think one of the coolest things that therapy has taught me is how to identify things that make me happy, bring me relief and offer me comfort. For instance, I learned at my last apartment that finding ways to be outside was nice for me, but I never went out of my way to be outside when I really needed it. Now when I hear that voice in my head - ( Read more... ) -
Books
A friend of mine has a goal to read something like 4,000 pages this year. I think it's a pretty cool idea, so I've decided to track my pages. I don't have a goal set, but I'd still it'd be pretty interesting to see how many pages I cover when I'm not in school. When I think about all the research and assigned readings I had January through December ( Read more... ) -
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The last two days I have felt better than I have in weeks. I feel like this last painful jolt to my system (and the family drama that came with it) helped peel away another layer of inner pain ( Read more... ) -
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How do you contact someone you haven't talked to in 15 years to send your condolences?? How do you give condolences for the death of someone who was murdered or committed suicide?? I've typed out the message probably two dozen times and it just never looks right. When I finally think, "yes.that's good." I get an uneasy feeling and I can't send it. ( Read more... )