It's been a while. Things have been lovely. I got a job at a cafe downtown...I'm the coffee-mixer-upper. Jen and I really connected over the past months. We see each other every day. right now, life is good. I really hope things stay this relaxed and fun. You're only young once.

I AM happy. This music always reminds me of...happier times, I guess ( Read more... )

Windy like all hell today. I could feel it howling around the corners of my room. I loved it though. Most people want to get out of the wind. I want to stand in the road and...fly. But I've never been in a windy enough place for that to really work. I need to rent a windtunnel?

I love riding horses. Yesterday I skipped school to ride with Jen. She has horses at a boarding place somewhere, and we rode in the afternoon. After that, we went back to her place for dinner. She has an apartment downtown. All in all, it was a great experience and lots of fun.

I hate valentines day. It's just a coporate scam to get people to feel insecure about themselves and solve it through consumerism. At least when I had someone who loved me, I was a little comforted, but yesterday was sickening.

Sleepover tomorrow! All right!

I saw Jason today. He's finally back from wherever on the east coast he was that he wouldn't tell me about. I love him, I really do, but he's too unstable for me. He'll just walk away from anything if the mood strikes. We'll never be more than just friends, I know that, and yet I have this conversaion with myself all the time. I want more, and ( Read more... )

There's nothing worse than having to see him every day and knowing that I'll never have him, he'll always be 100% devoted to her. They have so much history. There's no place for me and I've never felt more worthless. Perfect time to say goodbye.