This week has had more excitement packed into than the entire year.

I don't really feel like going into detail on here, possibly because I am absolutely exhausted, but here are a few of the highlights.

*Bill and I got into a fight
*Bill got in an accident
*People who I havent seen since I was little keep coming into work
*Fight with Ashley
*Warped Tour ( Read more... )

I can be very nerotic sometimes. Like I can't stand not knowing what my mom is doing and where she is in the house at all times. I'm always afraid that if it gets really quiet and she's not in the same room with me that I'm going to walk upstairs and find her hanging from the ceiling in her bedroom or lying motionless on the bathroom floor with a ( Read more... )

I worry too much. I constantly imagine worst case scenario when it usually turns out that nothing is wrong. I also constantly think about the future. Where am I going to be 10 years down the road? Or even one for that matter. I worry especially now because in less than a month I am going to be done with college (kinda) and I dont know what I want ( Read more... )

I hate how these nightmares keep coming back. They stopped for awhile, but now that I'm actually happy they've come back stronger than ever. I wake up at night, tears streaming down my face, my whole body shaking. Why me ( Read more... )

I cant sleep. Mainly because I feel randomly naucious and the entire left side of my body is aching.

As you can probably tell, it's about 5 in the morning and I have no idea what to do with myself. I want to sleep but if I was able to do that I would have just stayed in bill's room where I really want to be right now. But since that's not happening ( Read more... )

I get too attached to people. Whether that's a good thing or a bad thing, I haven't decided yet. Right now it seems more of a good thing. I love my best friend Ashley and my amazing boyfriend Bill. They make me happier than the world and I would do anything for them. And I am surrounded by other caring friends who mean the world to me. Even just ( Read more... )

One thing I would like to add to the last entry:

I know that I only met him a few times and we weren't that close, but I'm so afraid of seeing people I love end up like Zach Stuck, or Stucky as his friends called him. I'm not sure of all the details of what happened to him. I dont have a timeline depicting when what happened and who all was there. ( Read more... )

I've been thinking a lot recently about my past and the things I've done. One thing that really sticks out are the days when I let my so called friends convince me to take prescription pills to get fucked up. For the longest time I had no idea why I let myself be convinced to do something that stupid. I just kept telling myself it was for the high ( Read more... )

It's funny how people know you but they dont really KNOW you. They cant just pop open your head and see everything that goes on in your mind. They have no idea about what has happened to you in the past to make you the way you are now. Sure there are the best friends, husbands, confidants that know a lot but they dont know everything. Perhaps you ( Read more... )

In the past few weeks, I have began to realize that I have this unusual habit of talking to myself, in my head of course, as if I were speaking through a monologue. I tend to think through memories and thoughts this way, as if I were a character in a movie telling everyone viewing exactly what is passing through my mind.

Why is it that people tend ( Read more... )