..what a depressing day..

my new goal in life..self acceptance.

..whats fair? nothings fair..so why do we insist on complaining about whats fair and unfair when nothing IS fair? ..think about that.

I miss you Meaghan and Harley..i miss both of you..

so i got in touch with my dad, we are going to try and get me to utah by the end of the first week of june or sometime in the second week. i almost called harley yesterday but i decided not to..i dont like answering machines v.v. though i do want to talk to her..maybe i Will call..and leave a messege that will never be replied... ..so meaghans ( Read more... )

so, saterday i went camping with dantaia my stepdad my stepdads boss and his family...or some of it. we got there late so we werent really there that long, it was pretty fun though. the water was pretty nice i suppose, i still dont float..and i need to learn how to swim..cause i suck at swimming. i missed meaghan too, i wanted at least one hug ( Read more... )

im on top of the world..i love the cuddling, the holding, the hugging, the stareing into eachothers eyes every now and again..i love the attention, i love being able to give you attention, i love the kissing, i love the jokes, i love the laughter..i love the other things..i love how you held me tighter when i cried..im sorry if i did disapoint you ( Read more... )

i had another one of those dreams where i got stung by a shit load of bees while i was flying...it fucking hurt..i woke up and was like GOD DAMN IT then i looked at me wall it there were these glowing dots which confused the hell out of me. ..went back to bed and had another interesting dream..Megan was in both dreams which i liked, the second ( Read more... )

..should i apologize for being honest with you? i dont think i should..do you? i suppose i expected you to react like that..but i thought you should know that i love and care for you very much, and it pains me to read about how shitty your life is being..and how stressed you are getting..i wish with all my heart i could do something to help..but ( Read more... )

so alyssa and i arnt together anymore. thats the last word.

i had such a great day today, such a very great day..i was actually happy..and still feel happy. ill not explain, if you know you know if you dont you dont.