i hate my depression but at least i can feel when the rest of the world seems to just be fucking numb to everything. please buy me a plane ticket. i hate this fucking town, still...

I'm going to trust you. I have finally forgiven you for the past. Don't fuck up! this is your second chance and I already had told myself I would give no more second chances...to anyone. Don't ruin this.

i hate when i realize all over again that all i really can rely on is myself. i wish i had someone who'd just hang out with just me and watch movies or something. i guess wanting attention to myself is too much to ask.

it's kinda weird how you know you care about someone and you're not sure how much and all of a sudden it hits you how much you love them. i love you so much and even little arguments kill me.

" you said you hate my suffering and you understood and you'd take care of me. you'd always be there... where are you now?"

something is missing. i can't figure out what. what is making me feel this way? i hate it. i want to leave and never come back ( Read more... )

blehhh in love with that boy. :\ fuck. i hate sleeping without him. i feel lonely. i hate that i know what it feels like to be heartbroken. all i can think about is how fucking bad i'm going to hurt if he breaks up with me. i don't want to ever feel that terrible again.

I wish you'd stop telling every girl you love them. I get so tired of always hearing that. This is coming from a girl who's had that word blindly thrown at them way too many times. I'm sorry but I think it's so ridiculous. Why can't you just meet a girl here...one that's not a million miles away. You could pull some nice girls I'm sure. You ( Read more... )

"The truth is, I’ve never just been liked, loved, needed. I’ve only ever been used. They pulled me in and made me believe that they cared, when really it was only when the time was convenient for them that they were there in the first place. When they were feeling lonely, when their significant-fucking-other wasn’t around, I was the one turned to. ( Read more... )

RANDOM-today i found the ring mark bought me when i was 14. i thought i threw it away but obviously not...i just hid it really well. i'm glad i didn't. normally when i dislike someone so much i throw everything out. i guess its kinda just nice to remember even if he is a douche bag a majority of the time.