If you don't mind, I would like my heart back now. So as of tomorrow (well actually practically today) it will have been 2 weeks since Matt and I broke up. I was doing pretty well with the whole ordeal. I stopped crying about it, and I even kinda went on a date. It was all part of my horribly evil plan to spy on matt and possibly see "the baby," ( Read more... )

Look. After like a lifetime of not updating, I am updating a few times a day. I just dont have all that much else to do. So here's the update. Today Matt called around noon, just like he promised. The conversation was crazy awkward. I tried to sound cheery, like this whole thing was going dandy for me, just becuase it was going well for him. So I ( Read more... )

Do not be fooled. The title is a bit misleading. This is not a cheery entry about how I have gotten over matt and have fallen for some perfect guy who is 6'5", perfect body, excellent personality, and likes me. That just isnt true. In fact...it is quite the opposite. So they all tell me that it is better NOT to avoid the emotions. Not to push them ( Read more... )

Ok ok, so I do not know why I am updating again. I guess I just feel the need to keep the story current. Since Matt told me that he is happier being single than being with me, I screamed at him and left with Velda, leaving him standing in the driveway. That was ignorant of me, and I later called and left an apologetic voicemail. But I was hurt and ( Read more... )

The poem from Karen's profile... oddly fitting ( Read more... )

Oh wow. It has been ages since I have used this thing. A lot has happened. Both of my grandparents in Florida passed away, and like a month later, my bf of 4 years dumped me. It is a long story, but I will try to sum it up.We broke up a week ago and it's definitely taking its toll on me. We were just talking about the future and how we have only ( Read more... )

I know it has been forever since I have updated this thing. I think basically i have been trying to avoid emotion and telling people how i feel, and in a way this journal causes me to do just that. These last couple weeks have killed me. I hate it right now. I am trying to be happy. And I am much of the time. The time when I am with my friends. The ( Read more... )

This is from yesterday, but it still counts ( Read more... )

Jess told me I should update this time. What wonderful friends I have that make me update my journal. I am not sure what mood I am in right now. It is a strange feeling. I am kinda happy, but at the same time I have this overwhelming feeling that something is not right. I hate when that happens, and I hate it even more when it is true. I am hoping ( Read more... )

Im not sure what to write right now. I should be writing a paper. But for some reason, at the moment, I am totally incapable of writing anything of importance. Hence, I am writing in my journal. Scott says he is worried about me cuz I am not talking. But I dont know why, but im not sure what all is bugging me. Just a bunch of shit I guess. And it ( Read more... )