wow, long time since i've updated. i will keep this fairly brief cuz it is pretty whiny. i am pretty much miserable at school a lot of the time. right now it is bad because i am super sick. last night my roommate kept me up most of the night cuz she decided to get completely trashed. she barely remembers last night. she didn't turn off the ( Read more... )

I think i've figured out one of my biggest problems. i think too highly of myself. i am convinced that just because i am someone's best friend or girlfriend that i deserve special treatment. which to a degree, i do. i am a special person in that person's life. but that doesn't mean that i deserve all, or even most of their time. they have a ( Read more... )

my life feels messy right now. things are just unorganized. i feel really lethargic right now. my knee doesn't help anything. if it feels like this tomorrow i think i am going to olin tomorrow. this is really fucking bad. i am so tired. shit and my throat is sore. and one of the girls on the team might have mono. and we all share water. ( Read more... )

so i need some help here. i'm pretty loaded down with school right now, but i got an email today for a position as a lab assitant. it's nothing exciting, it's just washing dishes, preparing solutions, updating lab records, etc. but the thing is, it could lead to an undergraduate lab position. aside from doing actual research (so exciting!!), it ( Read more... )

wow. so this is college. everyone says that you have a ton of downtime, but i definately don't. i am taking 17 credits. i keep adding more and more. i need to stop. i switched out of regular chem into honors. we'll so how that goes. hopefully i can keep up. i already have a ton of homework. plus other stuff to do like laundry and cleaning ( Read more... )

wow, i hate being fucked over. and i am so sick of it too. first the loft people. our appointment for when our loft was supposed to be built was 11:00. they pushed it back to 12:30. they didn't get here until 1:30. at about 1:45 the one person that came promptly left to go find his tools (they were in another dorm). he came back about an ( Read more... )

okay. this kinda sucks. my roommate is a sophomore. i only have one suitemate. she is like a sophomore or a junior. almost no one on first floor has moved in. i have no one to go to all of the freshman shit with me. i don't even know where half of this shit is. i'm starting to get bored. my first night at college and i'm not even partying ( Read more... )

On Wednesday morning i am moving up to school!!! that's right bitches, i'll be in east lansing! anyways, if you want to see me before i leave, because i don't plan on coming home much, then give me a call. i can't make any promises, because i'm super busy as it is, but give me a call and at least let me know you love me and will miss me anyways ( Read more... )

i think last night was the single best lesson i have ever had in just how far the consequences of my actions can reach. i hope that i never have to watch someone i love learn this lesson. it is not fun. it is not good. sometimes when you fuck up, you only hurt yourself. what i wouldn't give to have made one of those fuck ups, instead of this ( Read more... )

i've decided i need to make some changes in my life. mostly just in the way i deal with the people around me. i need to get rid of people who won't treat me well. i'm sick of giving chance after chance. but more than that, i'm sick of chasing after people. i've come to the realization that if you want to be around me, you will. i won't have ( Read more... )