I am very upset. I had been way excited to go to Sonic with Bryan, Alex, and Caleb. I mean beyond excited. Thats all I could talk about. And you know what happened? Steve decided he wanted to go. Which is fine by me. He and I are obviously not friends anymore but I am adult enough to be able to be around him. Obviously he is not. Bryan called me ( Read more... )

College! Its not so bad. Moving in was so crazy. I cannot imagine doing it with everyone else coming on Saturday. I had horrible OCD yesterday though. I couldn't eat lunch. All I wanted to do was unpack. I was getting so stressed. Everything is all set now though. Megan, my roommate, is really cool. Talks a lot, but I like her. We went out last ( Read more... )

I'm leaving in less than 9 hours. Holy shit. I am finally done packing. Mother and I seem to be on better terms but unless she has a last minute change of mind, she still isn't going to Kalamazoo tomorrow. That is quite upsetting. Anywho, here is my address for all those who love me! 404 Hadley Kalamazoo, MI 49008-5270. I'm really going to miss you ( Read more... )

Mother is not going up to school with me on Tuesday.

Janessa is leaving. Man will I miss her. I am next. But I am beginning to not feel so afraid. Mother and I aren't talking, kind of like what happened last time but not as intense in that way, and I think its helping me to want to leave. The whole thing with mother is quite strange. I really don't know how to react. I hate hurting her like this but ( Read more... )

I had my first casino trip! I took forty but lost 15. Not too bad. So today, Laura and I were going to go to camp but due to me getting home at 4am and oversleeping, we just weren't going to get there in time. Very very very sad. I wanted to go so badly. But I guess it happens. I will go to competitions. I leave for school in 10 days. 10. I scared ( Read more... )

I cannot even sleep, I have myself all terrified and flustered. I do not want to go. I do not like being alone, even moreso in strange surroundings. Everyone is going to be so far away and I will have no one. Not one bone in my body is looking forward to going. I am not even lying a little there. Right now I am completely fine with staying at home ( Read more... )

I just kind of stopped updating because of well a snooping mother. I've been in a lot of trouble with her lately which I deserve. But at least we are talking again. Well it came up that due to the last time I was left home alone and had well a couple of pretty good parties and mother found out, that I would have to stay at my grandparents house ( Read more... )

For the sake of updating I will. My parents left for awhile, I partied it up. Sorry to those of you who were unable to attend esp Thursday night because that was the shit. Whoever was holding me down sucks because now I'm a bruised child. Definately check out the pictures they are quite comical. I went to Cedar Point on monday with Caleb, Steve, ( Read more... )

Look what I did. By I of course I mean the man with the tattoos and needles.

( Hott )