seven months and nine days into sobriety, i'm finally going to call up my sponsor. i have never felt so weak but willing to accept someones help. fuck i'm scared.
I haven't been on livejournal in forever, but I'm in a weird mood and signed on for some reason. I haven't talked to you in forever forever, and I don't have any idea why you have a sponsor but I thought I'd write to you: I was dating a drug addict and he ran away to rehab for 5 months, and I just saw him again for the first time. I went to an AA meeting with him on Friday. I've never been to a more positive environment in my life. Call your sponsor. Lean on people when you need to. Don't give up. Good luck with whatever you're dealing with. :)
wow. hey thanks. i really do appreciate it. i had a drinking problem for a while. i still haven't called her, but i will. i sometimes i write in my lj for stints of time just because it feels good. knowing someone out there might just happen across it and they might just happen to relate.
aa meetings are wonderful. i miss them greatly. when i'm at school i really have no support except from my friends. but i just wish i had a group of people who knew what i was going through. everyone always acts really sensitive around me and i appreciate it but i HATE when people say, "oh don't worry i'm not that drunk." drives me wild.
UM HOWS LIFE? are you still with the boy or are you just a friend now? where do you go to school? whats your major? whats life like? etc etc!
I'm still on Long Island going to Stony Brook University, but I'm moving to Chicago in June and starting classes at DePaul University at some point. Stony Brook hasn't been the best of places, which is why I'm moving away, but I guess I'm grateful for the experiences I had here. Life is okay, but I'm trying to better myself by changing my environment. And in regards to Halley, that guy--I guess we're just friends. The whole me running away to Chicago thing gets in the way. It's just all together a complicated situation. But I care about him more than anyone else. And he's the most interesting person I've ever met. And I feel like crying, haha. I keep typing and deleting what I wrote, so I'm going to give up here and accept what I've written. What's going on with you?
so much. i can't really summarize everything that has happened since i was 15. but all i can say is, now i'm pretty happy. i'm doing the things i love like crew, writing, yoga, reading. and i love my friends at school. it will be very strange to go back home to such a different environment. chicago is pretty close to minneSNOWta, btw. hmmmm. whats yo' major?
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I haven't talked to you in forever forever, and I don't have any idea why you have a sponsor but I thought I'd write to you:
I was dating a drug addict and he ran away to rehab for 5 months, and I just saw him again for the first time. I went to an AA meeting with him on Friday. I've never been to a more positive environment in my life. Call your sponsor. Lean on people when you need to. Don't give up. Good luck with whatever you're dealing with. :)
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aa meetings are wonderful. i miss them greatly. when i'm at school i really have no support except from my friends. but i just wish i had a group of people who knew what i was going through. everyone always acts really sensitive around me and i appreciate it but i HATE when people say, "oh don't worry i'm not that drunk." drives me wild.
UM HOWS LIFE? are you still with the boy or are you just a friend now? where do you go to school? whats your major? whats life like? etc etc!
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And in regards to Halley, that guy--I guess we're just friends. The whole me running away to Chicago thing gets in the way. It's just all together a complicated situation. But I care about him more than anyone else. And he's the most interesting person I've ever met. And I feel like crying, haha.
I keep typing and deleting what I wrote, so I'm going to give up here and accept what I've written. What's going on with you?
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